Since life is never easy
I have been home for only two weeks and have managed to spend an enormous amount of money. Some of it was necessary purchases - new clothes, shampoo, razor blades, bridesmaid's dress for a friend's wedding, etc. However, the more expensive items were things I would have needed eventually but not right now. This most expensive buy was a new computer.
I am thoroughly enjoying my new laptop though. Since I will be doing a fair amount of traveling in the near future, I wanted a much smaller laptop than my previous one. After lugging my 15" screen laptop through three countries and getting stranding for several hours in two separate airports, I needed something smaller. For the record, I do NOT recommend Royal Jordanian airlines. Take Emirates instead; don't repeat my mistake.
I had to make one of the hardest decisions of my life last week. I don't know why, but I suddenly realized that he was not the one for me. It took me over two years to come to that conclusion. It wasn't the answer I had been expecting, but it was the one I got. Telling him was one of the worst things I have ever had to do. I know he absolutely adores me; he is a wonderful guy. However, there is just no future for us. I don't know why that is true; but I do know unequivocally that it is true. I can't go against my intuition. If I tried, I would be a shell of myself, not being who I am supposed to be. Of course, that didn't make it any easier to tell him. I fear he will not understand why I had to do this. I guess it will sort itself out in the end.
I am thoroughly enjoying my new laptop though. Since I will be doing a fair amount of traveling in the near future, I wanted a much smaller laptop than my previous one. After lugging my 15" screen laptop through three countries and getting stranding for several hours in two separate airports, I needed something smaller. For the record, I do NOT recommend Royal Jordanian airlines. Take Emirates instead; don't repeat my mistake.
I had to make one of the hardest decisions of my life last week. I don't know why, but I suddenly realized that he was not the one for me. It took me over two years to come to that conclusion. It wasn't the answer I had been expecting, but it was the one I got. Telling him was one of the worst things I have ever had to do. I know he absolutely adores me; he is a wonderful guy. However, there is just no future for us. I don't know why that is true; but I do know unequivocally that it is true. I can't go against my intuition. If I tried, I would be a shell of myself, not being who I am supposed to be. Of course, that didn't make it any easier to tell him. I fear he will not understand why I had to do this. I guess it will sort itself out in the end.