playing catch up
Well there is not much to update on. My life is fairly routine these days, with not much fluctuations. Sometimes that is a blessing and sometimes it is crazy boring. I need some fun!
I find myself getting frustrated at Hugh, my fiance, when he goes out with his friends. He always has time when I am at work to go hang out with his friends at bars, movies, bowling, etc. On my days off, however, I find myself sitting at home, cleaning, or just waiting for him to get off of work. I have been feeling like I do all the cleaning and keeping of the house, which is frustrating because I rarely make all the messes. I do not mind cleaning house, but I just feel that it is all I do with my time off. However, I have come to realize that my frustration is actually jealousy. I am jealous, I guess, because I do not have any "girl" friends in town to hang out with, go to clubs or movies, etc. I am jealous of him having all of these opportunities to go out, and I feel stuck at home. All of my girlfriends are out of state and busy being married. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy for them, but I am starving for female interaction. I do no think it would even be a problem to go out with males, but I only have a few male friends and most are not the "going out" types.
But now, rather than just being upset or pretending nothing is wrong, I have figured out the root of the problem and I have voiced my feelings to Hugh. I do not expect him to sit at home, I just need him to allow me time for myself as well. It is easy for him to go out while I am at work because I am there for 12hours. He, even if he closes, gets off at 11 pm or so which means I will be out without him while he is at home by himself. I do not want that either. I am still gonna try to get out more, he understands what I am going through, so hopefully he will not get upset and he will allow me some time. First, I have to find someone to spend time with outside of this house.
That being said anyone reading this who wants to help a girl out, just let me know. I am not big on the club scene anymore, but I think I can still have fun. There is still hope...right?
Carla
I find myself getting frustrated at Hugh, my fiance, when he goes out with his friends. He always has time when I am at work to go hang out with his friends at bars, movies, bowling, etc. On my days off, however, I find myself sitting at home, cleaning, or just waiting for him to get off of work. I have been feeling like I do all the cleaning and keeping of the house, which is frustrating because I rarely make all the messes. I do not mind cleaning house, but I just feel that it is all I do with my time off. However, I have come to realize that my frustration is actually jealousy. I am jealous, I guess, because I do not have any "girl" friends in town to hang out with, go to clubs or movies, etc. I am jealous of him having all of these opportunities to go out, and I feel stuck at home. All of my girlfriends are out of state and busy being married. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy for them, but I am starving for female interaction. I do no think it would even be a problem to go out with males, but I only have a few male friends and most are not the "going out" types.
But now, rather than just being upset or pretending nothing is wrong, I have figured out the root of the problem and I have voiced my feelings to Hugh. I do not expect him to sit at home, I just need him to allow me time for myself as well. It is easy for him to go out while I am at work because I am there for 12hours. He, even if he closes, gets off at 11 pm or so which means I will be out without him while he is at home by himself. I do not want that either. I am still gonna try to get out more, he understands what I am going through, so hopefully he will not get upset and he will allow me some time. First, I have to find someone to spend time with outside of this house.
That being said anyone reading this who wants to help a girl out, just let me know. I am not big on the club scene anymore, but I think I can still have fun. There is still hope...right?
Carla