Please.
I'd like to go home now please. I've had all I can take of my current situation.
I'm not sure what's going to happen to me if (when) this army thing doesn't work out. I have alot of people in my corner, but I'm not sure if they're willing to fight to keep me here. I hope so, and at the same time I can't stand being here.
I have approximately two friends here. One that I can only tolerate in small doses and only if we're just hanging out and don't have a serious conversation. And the other one I grow increasingly more annoyed with every time we talk. They're friends with each other; and this would be awesome for hanging out all together if we actually did this. However, they both tend to hang out together while I just sit around the barracks being lonely and getting fat. Then when I question them about it they're like "oh, we didn't think you would want to go." Like today when I spent all day trying to get B to hang out and do stuff off post so I don't go crazy, and we went and got dinner, but then she left and went to play pool with other friend. I like pool. I want to do stuff. (I know this sounds like I"m the clingy, annoying friend, but it's kind of mutual. They call me [independently] to do stuff on occasion as well.)
So instead, I was abandoned at the LCC. I don't mind staying there if they're just hanging around post. But they know I want to leave and have limited options; they just don't care. I've officially lost $1000 in three days. Yeah, you read that right. I'm just so friggin' bored that I don't realize how much I'm gambling away. Nor do I care most of the time.
The worst part about all this is that I'm used to having people around. All my life I've had people I could rely on-tons of friends, family, the occasional aquaintance who I could call. I was never really alone. Not that I need to be entertained, but it was nice to know I could count on these people when I needed them. Now it's pretty much just me. I can't even call home to talk to them because of the time different and schedule conflicts.
I'm lonely and I'm sad. I'd really like to go home now, please.
Happy birthday, mom.
I'm not sure what's going to happen to me if (when) this army thing doesn't work out. I have alot of people in my corner, but I'm not sure if they're willing to fight to keep me here. I hope so, and at the same time I can't stand being here.
I have approximately two friends here. One that I can only tolerate in small doses and only if we're just hanging out and don't have a serious conversation. And the other one I grow increasingly more annoyed with every time we talk. They're friends with each other; and this would be awesome for hanging out all together if we actually did this. However, they both tend to hang out together while I just sit around the barracks being lonely and getting fat. Then when I question them about it they're like "oh, we didn't think you would want to go." Like today when I spent all day trying to get B to hang out and do stuff off post so I don't go crazy, and we went and got dinner, but then she left and went to play pool with other friend. I like pool. I want to do stuff. (I know this sounds like I"m the clingy, annoying friend, but it's kind of mutual. They call me [independently] to do stuff on occasion as well.)
So instead, I was abandoned at the LCC. I don't mind staying there if they're just hanging around post. But they know I want to leave and have limited options; they just don't care. I've officially lost $1000 in three days. Yeah, you read that right. I'm just so friggin' bored that I don't realize how much I'm gambling away. Nor do I care most of the time.
The worst part about all this is that I'm used to having people around. All my life I've had people I could rely on-tons of friends, family, the occasional aquaintance who I could call. I was never really alone. Not that I need to be entertained, but it was nice to know I could count on these people when I needed them. Now it's pretty much just me. I can't even call home to talk to them because of the time different and schedule conflicts.
I'm lonely and I'm sad. I'd really like to go home now, please.
Happy birthday, mom.