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I figured that I should update today. Last night I just couldn't go to sleep. I read the entire book The Notebook yesterday. Then afterwards I went into my room and started watching the movie. Then my mom came in and told me and my sister to turn off the light and the TV and go to bed. So we did that, but I just couldn't go to sleep. So I started thinking about what I want to do this weekend or even next week and since I have a very picturetive mind I was thinking about what I would be doing and how it would all play out and well I wasn't seeing good things at the end of it and then a few lines (for a poem or something) popped into my head. SO I jumped out of bed and turned the light on. I then fumbled through my bad to find my new scrap notebook (I've only written one complete poem in it until last night) and then I wrote down the few lines I had thought of. Then I turned the light off and laid back down. Well not even a minute later I thought of more lines for it. So I jumped back up turning the light on once again. I quickly grabbed the notebook and began writing. I did all of this a little bit past 12. I didn't finish that friggin' poem until like 1. I seemed satisfied enough to fall asleep and I did. I'm not sure if that was the reason that I just couldn't fall asleep, but I guess I'll never know. The poem is now the longest I have ever writen. It's 64 lines to be exact. I think that it's an "ok" poem. Leave me a comment and let me know what you guys think. Love you all.
Miiss ya Nathan! Glad to hear that you are better!
2 days left of school...
no matter what
Number One
A terrible, frightening noise
A dark, deep ring
Again sounds the phone
For unhappiness it does bring
I then wander off
Ending up outside
For now, it's a better spot,
one in which I can hide
I'm quitting this marathon
I'm stepping out of the race
This is race is like any other
One to achieve the first place
I've really tried my hardest
to be the number one
But I've made a decision
No more, I am now done
I can't continue on with it
I am of no competition
So many patterns are used
Most of simple repetition
Few acts of charm
Words choosen just right
All the "typical" things
carrying on the fight
Winning it all over
Especially the main part
The smallest yet biggest,
the tender, fragile heart
Completely taking it over
Using simple charm
Cradled rather loosely,
back and forth, arm to arm
Using those little phrases
that some time mean the most
Capturing the mind, body and soul
Constatnly to brag and to boast
Boastful for such "achievements"
Everything different and new
I hope you are happy
I hope it means a lot to you
I've spoken and I've given
I can say that I did try
But these other words
are just another lie
I'll put foot back in the race
I'll try for number one
But I know I'll fail
I know that it can't be done
I know I can pour my heart out
I know I'll be left vulnerable and naive
No matter how hard I do try
No matter how much I do believe
I'll still fail and place one short
Even being one whole second behind
I'm still the number two thought
I'm never the first in mind
Learning the taught lesson
It is now my turn
Acceptance is what is says
For that is what I did learn
You can't have everything you want
And here there won't be a number one
But I definitely can't complain
After all, second is better than none