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This weekend has been long. I was told ten minutes ago that it's not over yet - tomorrow's a holiday. I had no idea. So another long day ahead with the entire family around me. Things aren't terrible, I just am tired of being around all the people and the family and the questions all the time.
Hung out with Melinda tonight. I can't even explain how good it is to see someone from school. It's strange to see a school person in the "home" environment, but...it makes me realize how incredibly different a person I am. The Brenda at ACI is not anything like the Brenda that existed here before college. The Brenda now has emotions. She cries. She hates patriarchy. She has friends that will hold her when she cries. She has a support group who will tell her that she is beautiful, and it will not feel patronizing. She drinks, she advocates for others, and she gets frustrated when she can't predict other people's behaviors. She is codependent and trying hard to learn how to take care of herself. In that attempt, she is sometimes a little selfish becuase she hasn't quite figured out the balance yet. She doesn't go to church, and she's not sure if she believes in God.
THIS IS NOT WHO I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL!
Hung out with Melinda tonight. I can't even explain how good it is to see someone from school. It's strange to see a school person in the "home" environment, but...it makes me realize how incredibly different a person I am. The Brenda at ACI is not anything like the Brenda that existed here before college. The Brenda now has emotions. She cries. She hates patriarchy. She has friends that will hold her when she cries. She has a support group who will tell her that she is beautiful, and it will not feel patronizing. She drinks, she advocates for others, and she gets frustrated when she can't predict other people's behaviors. She is codependent and trying hard to learn how to take care of herself. In that attempt, she is sometimes a little selfish becuase she hasn't quite figured out the balance yet. She doesn't go to church, and she's not sure if she believes in God.
THIS IS NOT WHO I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL!