I'm starting to trip, I'm losing my grip. And I'm in this thing alone.
Hey Kids!
I haven't actually updated in quite some time, so I decided to give it a shot.
I'm back for Bum Fuck No Where. It was a fun trip, and I'm going back for New Years.
It's just good to be back with friends, even though they're family. I basically shadow my cousin Melissa, she's been mentioned in here before. It was fun hanging out with her.
The only real complaint I have with this trip is I had to deal with my mom and sister. *shrugs* I just got so used to not seeing them in the same setting that they're constant bickering got to me.
That, and the fact that Crystal joined the 'family business' and the rest of my family is on edge with that.
I miss my niece though. She's getting old enough to recongize things without constant stimuli. She sees a picture of me and starts screaming "Ananna!"(Yupik word for mothers sister), its so great.
I'm one of the few people she'll actually cry for, she doesnt' even do that to her mom. Makes me feel horrible when I leave her, though. She's going to Seattle for the rest of the year, till the third, I believe.
Hopefully she'll have fun, I know her mom will. They're going there to spend time with Crystal's girlfriend. Crystal's girlfriend already claims Leah as her own, and has helped pay for things for Baby many times, so I can't harbor anything against her.
But my sister is known to pick some seriously not...great people as her companions. *shrugs* Hopefully, this time she's made a good choice.
A few nights ago, when Vinnie came into town the weekend, I was drinking. When she got there I had already had four-five mixes and two beers. I convinced her to bring my mom to town to get more.
By convinced I mean that I threw the idea out there and she accepted. We got all sorts of buzzed and ended up having one of those talks that make you realize things about yourself you never really took notice of.
I can't remember any specifics(sp) but it was good for me. Even though I feel much better about life than I've had in possibly years.
Me and my mom are all caught up with our bills. I'm going to Savoonga for New Years, and she's going to Seattle. Right now, I'm just...enjoying everything, even though I'm not doing anything.
Nothing really changed in my situation besides not being in debt, but I just feel better. Its not the kind of better where I feel like I could go conquer the world, its just content. Which may not seem like a good thing for me, considering I'm a high school drop out, with no job, and no GED, but I'm content.
Thanks for reading, darlin's.
I'll see you when I see you.
I haven't actually updated in quite some time, so I decided to give it a shot.
I'm back for Bum Fuck No Where. It was a fun trip, and I'm going back for New Years.
It's just good to be back with friends, even though they're family. I basically shadow my cousin Melissa, she's been mentioned in here before. It was fun hanging out with her.
The only real complaint I have with this trip is I had to deal with my mom and sister. *shrugs* I just got so used to not seeing them in the same setting that they're constant bickering got to me.
That, and the fact that Crystal joined the 'family business' and the rest of my family is on edge with that.
I miss my niece though. She's getting old enough to recongize things without constant stimuli. She sees a picture of me and starts screaming "Ananna!"(Yupik word for mothers sister), its so great.
I'm one of the few people she'll actually cry for, she doesnt' even do that to her mom. Makes me feel horrible when I leave her, though. She's going to Seattle for the rest of the year, till the third, I believe.
Hopefully she'll have fun, I know her mom will. They're going there to spend time with Crystal's girlfriend. Crystal's girlfriend already claims Leah as her own, and has helped pay for things for Baby many times, so I can't harbor anything against her.
But my sister is known to pick some seriously not...great people as her companions. *shrugs* Hopefully, this time she's made a good choice.
A few nights ago, when Vinnie came into town the weekend, I was drinking. When she got there I had already had four-five mixes and two beers. I convinced her to bring my mom to town to get more.
By convinced I mean that I threw the idea out there and she accepted. We got all sorts of buzzed and ended up having one of those talks that make you realize things about yourself you never really took notice of.
I can't remember any specifics(sp) but it was good for me. Even though I feel much better about life than I've had in possibly years.
Me and my mom are all caught up with our bills. I'm going to Savoonga for New Years, and she's going to Seattle. Right now, I'm just...enjoying everything, even though I'm not doing anything.
Nothing really changed in my situation besides not being in debt, but I just feel better. Its not the kind of better where I feel like I could go conquer the world, its just content. Which may not seem like a good thing for me, considering I'm a high school drop out, with no job, and no GED, but I'm content.
Thanks for reading, darlin's.
I'll see you when I see you.