Jun 12, 2006 23:59
Allow me to repeat that:
"If it weren't for my horse, I wouldn't have spent that year in college."
I will give both of my kidneys and spend the rest of my life on dialysis to the person who can tell me where that quote originated from.
"If it weren't for my horse, I wouldn't have spent that year in college."
Say it to yourself. Make it your mantra. Whisper it at people who blister your brain with inane conversation. For the slower people in the audience, yes - I mean INANE, not insane. I feel I must clarify myself because the last time I said the word inane, the person I was talking to thought I meant insane, and calamity followed.
Anyway, lately I have been feeling a tad alienated from the crowd. I'm just not into the same things other people in my age group are into. I don't see the fun of going to a club, unless it is a gay club. Let me clarify. Gay clubs are a lot more fun than straight clubs. I'm guessing you want reasons why I feel this way. Well, go to a gay club. Then, go back to a straight club. You'll understand soon after. Unless, of course you are uncomfortable with homosexuality, and if that is the case, feel free to stick your insecure head in an oven. Nobody will miss you.
I get the sense I may be puking negative energy all over this blog, and I apologize for it. I really aspire to be energetic and loving. I'm serious, no sarcasm. I wish I could truly emulate goodness.
The problem is, I am very bothered by other people and their stupid interests.
I don't think I am more intelligent, bright, creative or deep than anybody else, but at least I am trying to become something other than...typical.
I don't care about the children of stupid celebrities. It's OK to indulge, but if it becomes your life, you are an asshole.
There is more to life than ridiculing others because they don't fit your mold of bullshit. There is more to life than the crap you are spoon fed on a daily basis. There is more to life than what you know, because none of us knows a damn thing. Read more. Study more. Look around. Really examine life and cherish it. Examine life and hate it. Examine life and indulge in it. But please do not waste it. Research before you ridicule. Oh, and fuck you.
"If it weren't for my horse, I wouldn't have spent that year in college."
I'm sick of trying to keep up. I'm sick of trying to explain myself. I'm sick of rationalizing my past and my youth.
I'm going to bed now.