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I've just replied to three comments on a meme I posted 3 years ago. I know I'm late but it did feel good to know and tie those loose strings :). And while doing that, I had the opportunity to read some of my old entries, which, needless to say, took me on a trip down memory lane when I was a very different person and life seemed much simpler. The entries in question are from 2007 when I tried to go abroad for an MA the first time (and was subsequently rejected by all the schools I applied to). I saw some posts where I was depressed and whining. I see myself now, see how much life has changed. For one thing, thank God that I ended up getting the MA, from a much better place than I expected. And I learnt a lot in the last year, met some great people and had a lot of exposure. My days in Manchester - although there were some rough times - were wonderful and they will always be emblazoned in my mind. Honestly, a part of me feels like I've returned empty-handed. I did get my MA degree, though not the merit but that's ok. I went to England hoping to meet my life partner but all I found was Ben, who seemed emotionally unavaible, preferring to hang out with other people. (Not mention the fact that he isn't Muslim.) I thought I'd find a job there. I did not.
However, if there's one thing I've learnt is that the key to success is patience. I might not get Ben, who still lingers on my mind. But I still harbour the hope that I can settle well abroad some day in the near future.
I did some writing today. Actually it's a redux for an original sci-fi short story I wrote in 2006. I was very proud of it then but now I see that it could do with many improvements. Plus, it's kinda for Ben since it has some intertextual references to his play. The trick is to concentrate and I find that hard enough to do. Nawmi says I need a better diet and she's probably right. I've started taking iron supplements. I only need to calm myself now and focus.
However, if there's one thing I've learnt is that the key to success is patience. I might not get Ben, who still lingers on my mind. But I still harbour the hope that I can settle well abroad some day in the near future.
I did some writing today. Actually it's a redux for an original sci-fi short story I wrote in 2006. I was very proud of it then but now I see that it could do with many improvements. Plus, it's kinda for Ben since it has some intertextual references to his play. The trick is to concentrate and I find that hard enough to do. Nawmi says I need a better diet and she's probably right. I've started taking iron supplements. I only need to calm myself now and focus.