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This might make me sound like a loser...but I have to give up.
I have just a bit over 13,000 words and I can't say I'm completely satisfied with what I've written. My muse is present but not for this. She wants me to write FMA fanfiction.
Regarding nano, frankly speaking, I am just tired of forcing words out for the sake of increasing the word count. It's mentally and emtionally exhausting and it tires me to no end. It's not as fun as I thought it would be. Hell, writing fanfiction is more fun!
I see people around me reaching 20 or 30k and it depresses me because it just isn't working for me. I can write a long 4 or 5k chapter for a fic but for nano, it's too damn taxing. I wanted to try it out because I thought I would be able to manage it...but now I see that I can't. Writing it is no fun and when something isn't fun, one should stop doing it. I work best when I set my own pace and having someone else set up these standards for me...I can't adjust with it. It's the whole "OMG, I have to write this many words" that has take out the enjoyment from writing my original novel. And then I have to send in college applications and take exams, and these things are more important.
I will still see what I do - I will try to go as far as I can, but there is a greater chance that I will keep writing The Buried Life and A Mirror Darkly and post the new chapters next month.
I still feel like a loser :(...but I just can't do it. I'm sorry.
I have just a bit over 13,000 words and I can't say I'm completely satisfied with what I've written. My muse is present but not for this. She wants me to write FMA fanfiction.
Regarding nano, frankly speaking, I am just tired of forcing words out for the sake of increasing the word count. It's mentally and emtionally exhausting and it tires me to no end. It's not as fun as I thought it would be. Hell, writing fanfiction is more fun!
I see people around me reaching 20 or 30k and it depresses me because it just isn't working for me. I can write a long 4 or 5k chapter for a fic but for nano, it's too damn taxing. I wanted to try it out because I thought I would be able to manage it...but now I see that I can't. Writing it is no fun and when something isn't fun, one should stop doing it. I work best when I set my own pace and having someone else set up these standards for me...I can't adjust with it. It's the whole "OMG, I have to write this many words" that has take out the enjoyment from writing my original novel. And then I have to send in college applications and take exams, and these things are more important.
I will still see what I do - I will try to go as far as I can, but there is a greater chance that I will keep writing The Buried Life and A Mirror Darkly and post the new chapters next month.
I still feel like a loser :(...but I just can't do it. I'm sorry.