"it must be morning in a faraway place somewhere"
it's been a slightly rough weekend - the cancelled festival caused me to think about the friends i left behind, to question what i'm doing in washington. friday night was the hardest and i felt frustrated and angry.
then yesterday morning chris van dam called and we talked for nearly two hours. and tonight nici called and we talked for an hour and a half. they're my closest/best girlfriends and i hadn't spoken to either one since i moved here. and in the same weekend, the weekend when i was feeling my lowest, they both called. and we talked and we talked. and they reminded me (indirectly) why i'm here. they reaffirmed my decision to leave. and it was just SO GOOD TO HEAR THEIR VOICES. to have them understand without even having to explain. and it's interesting because i've been thinking about what life would be like if i was still in milwaukee, how everything would still be so good and magical. yet after talking to them i realize things are different, so much has already changed, that even if i were still living in milwaukee it wouldn't be the same. this past year was truly special. and while i hate to think that it's gone there's comfort in knowing i'm not necessarily missing out. and i know that God is watching out for me. the phone calls from chris and nici were not an accident or simply coincidence. and i'm so thankful.
then yesterday morning chris van dam called and we talked for nearly two hours. and tonight nici called and we talked for an hour and a half. they're my closest/best girlfriends and i hadn't spoken to either one since i moved here. and in the same weekend, the weekend when i was feeling my lowest, they both called. and we talked and we talked. and they reminded me (indirectly) why i'm here. they reaffirmed my decision to leave. and it was just SO GOOD TO HEAR THEIR VOICES. to have them understand without even having to explain. and it's interesting because i've been thinking about what life would be like if i was still in milwaukee, how everything would still be so good and magical. yet after talking to them i realize things are different, so much has already changed, that even if i were still living in milwaukee it wouldn't be the same. this past year was truly special. and while i hate to think that it's gone there's comfort in knowing i'm not necessarily missing out. and i know that God is watching out for me. the phone calls from chris and nici were not an accident or simply coincidence. and i'm so thankful.