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I don't know what more I can do.
I just don't understand my parents sometimes. I'm 19 years old. Well...almost. I'll be 19 next week. And they still treat me like a child. I was having a normal conversation with my mother the other day. This is how it went:
Her: Did you have fun last night?
Me: Of course I did. I was with my friends. They make everything fun.
Her: You know, it seems to me that every 19 year old, with the exception of you of course, becomes more responsible after high school.
Me: Hahaha. You're weird.
Her: No, I'm serious. You need to be more responsible.
Just out of the blue! She told me that I was less responsible than any other 19 year old. I don't know what more she wants out of me! I'm getting all A's and B's in 18 units of school. I'm working for Martha to pay off my lessons at the Academy. I'm taking lessons and classes to prepare myself for my major. I'm going off to a 4 year university next year. I know where I'm going in life. I just got a job working 20 hours a week at 9 dollars an hour. Yeah, I go out with my friends sometimes. But it's not like I don't get all the crap done that I need to.
Now I'm grounded. For being irresponsible. I told her I thought it was ridiculous that she grounded her 19 year old daughter and took away her phone and she said, "Well maybe if my 19 year old daughter started acting like a 19 year old, I wouldn't have to do that."
And. And. AND. To top it all of, she told me the other day that if I don't get on campus housing, she doesn't want me to go to Chico next semester. "It just doesn't make sense. I don't want to have to deal with finding you an apartment and roommates that you don't know." She wants me to freaking grow up but SHE'S NOT LETTING ME. She's keeping me here! It's been my plan for six months now to go to Chico after this semester. And now she doesn't want me to.
I don't know what to do with her. And my dad agrees with all of this! I'm trying to be responsible. I'm doing my best under the circumstances. But with them breathing down my neck all the time, it's hard. All I know is that if they're forcing me to stay next semester, I am getting the HELL out of this house. I can't live here with the fear of being grounded again looming over me all the time. I need to move on. If they won't let me do that by going away to college, at least let me live on my own.
I don't know what more I can do than what I'm already doing. I'm doing my best.
I just don't understand my parents sometimes. I'm 19 years old. Well...almost. I'll be 19 next week. And they still treat me like a child. I was having a normal conversation with my mother the other day. This is how it went:
Her: Did you have fun last night?
Me: Of course I did. I was with my friends. They make everything fun.
Her: You know, it seems to me that every 19 year old, with the exception of you of course, becomes more responsible after high school.
Me: Hahaha. You're weird.
Her: No, I'm serious. You need to be more responsible.
Just out of the blue! She told me that I was less responsible than any other 19 year old. I don't know what more she wants out of me! I'm getting all A's and B's in 18 units of school. I'm working for Martha to pay off my lessons at the Academy. I'm taking lessons and classes to prepare myself for my major. I'm going off to a 4 year university next year. I know where I'm going in life. I just got a job working 20 hours a week at 9 dollars an hour. Yeah, I go out with my friends sometimes. But it's not like I don't get all the crap done that I need to.
Now I'm grounded. For being irresponsible. I told her I thought it was ridiculous that she grounded her 19 year old daughter and took away her phone and she said, "Well maybe if my 19 year old daughter started acting like a 19 year old, I wouldn't have to do that."
And. And. AND. To top it all of, she told me the other day that if I don't get on campus housing, she doesn't want me to go to Chico next semester. "It just doesn't make sense. I don't want to have to deal with finding you an apartment and roommates that you don't know." She wants me to freaking grow up but SHE'S NOT LETTING ME. She's keeping me here! It's been my plan for six months now to go to Chico after this semester. And now she doesn't want me to.
I don't know what to do with her. And my dad agrees with all of this! I'm trying to be responsible. I'm doing my best under the circumstances. But with them breathing down my neck all the time, it's hard. All I know is that if they're forcing me to stay next semester, I am getting the HELL out of this house. I can't live here with the fear of being grounded again looming over me all the time. I need to move on. If they won't let me do that by going away to college, at least let me live on my own.
I don't know what more I can do than what I'm already doing. I'm doing my best.