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Im getting pretty sick of life right now. I went to that funeral today..and it made me depressed. I just wanna yell out loud how I feel about life. I sick of hiding how I feel and acting so damn happy about my life all the time, I mean usually I am happy, but then again, I have my days. Yea I get what I want when I want . Im happy with just about everything..but there is something lacking in my life. Ive decided my dad could move 4 million miles away, and Im not sure that I would care,he is all about shawn and how awesome of a frickin kid he is..and its not even jealousy anymore. Even though me and my mom fight alot, I still feel like if I lost her, I would lose my mind. They would just have to go ahead and put me 6 feet under as well. As I watched Sandy miss her mom today at that funeral, I hugged my momma and I began to cry...she has been thru hell in her life, her dad told her he hated her and he would shoot her for getting pregnant, and he shot at my dad with a shot gun.Even if the man has cancer.He was cruel sometimes. But then again who isnt. But she is the most important thing in my life. And I just wanna never let go of her...(Im having a big yawn as liz would say..Im beginning to cry again.) I just feel like there is no one to turn to in life.I mean there is but no one really cares...or no one understands..or they think you are a walking basket case. So, I sit here tonight thinking about my past, and the past year, if I could erase it, alot of things would be different. I would have paid more attention to family, and less on how much people,guys liked me. I would have not been so rude with my parents, because when I look back, its always my fault. And I would have went to church more...because I know God is the constant in my life no matter what, besides my mom. And they both mean too much to me to explain.Linz called me to tell me that her and Jake were about to break up, and just more proof that guys are all out for the same thing, and Im sick of it all. Im sorry about it, and I hope her heart heals fast. I hate hearts having to hurt.
And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying " Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them .They will be his people and God himself will be with them and be their God.He will wipe every tear from their eyes.There will be no more deathor mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things have passed away."
Revelation 21: 3-4
I <3 this song right here, I <3 this band, yea....I may say all these songs ARE MY jams...but THIS SONG IS MY JAM, and it explains my life
Something is wrong with the some of us
That I can't seem to erase
How can I be the only one
Without a smile on my face
[Chorus]
Well now, you're laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight
You show your pain like it really hurts
And I can't even start to feel mine
Well, I'm standing in place
With my head first and I shake, I shake
I see your progress stretched out for miles and miles
[Chorus]
You're laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive, yeah
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight
This is the sound that I make
These are the words I chose
Somehow the right thing to say
Just won't come out
Just won't come out
[Chorus]
And you're laughing out loud
At the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight
na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
And I was wondering
na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
And I was wondering
na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Yeah, and I was wondering
na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
I was wondering, yeah
I just wanna tell the world how I feel..but I dont think they would care.
And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying " Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them .They will be his people and God himself will be with them and be their God.He will wipe every tear from their eyes.There will be no more deathor mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things have passed away."
Revelation 21: 3-4
I <3 this song right here, I <3 this band, yea....I may say all these songs ARE MY jams...but THIS SONG IS MY JAM, and it explains my life
Something is wrong with the some of us
That I can't seem to erase
How can I be the only one
Without a smile on my face
[Chorus]
Well now, you're laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight
You show your pain like it really hurts
And I can't even start to feel mine
Well, I'm standing in place
With my head first and I shake, I shake
I see your progress stretched out for miles and miles
[Chorus]
You're laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive, yeah
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight
This is the sound that I make
These are the words I chose
Somehow the right thing to say
Just won't come out
Just won't come out
[Chorus]
And you're laughing out loud
At the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight
na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
And I was wondering
na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
And I was wondering
na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Yeah, and I was wondering
na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
I was wondering, yeah
I just wanna tell the world how I feel..but I dont think they would care.