Doody
Okay, well, paj's last entry made me all weepy. I mean, this fucking sucks. I was crying the other night to Ethan telling him I never knew I would come here and meet people I loved. Last weekend there I was making djgyrl89 and pizza_tram tear up because I wanted them to know how much knowing them made my life better here. And of course, there are so many more... like Mel and Kev. I mean, we've had SO much fun together in such a short time! And of course everyone knows I adore paj that is no secret. But seriously, the people I have met here and had the opportunity to spend time with (my Alexandria ladies, my Midnight and Balty crew... you are all on my LJ list and know who you are)... I will miss you so much.
It made me start thinking about missing freakyp and how we have been a little family practically since we moved here. It feels weird not to take him with us and continue making memories with him. And then I started thinking about my family in Orlando and how they really have NO IDEA how my heart breaks not being with them and not seeing the girls growing up. And my brother is heartbroken that we are leaving too, and he's giving me the silent treatment right now (all the way from Georgia) even though I know he doesn't mean too... he's just sad like I am.
But I want to be happy because I am going to this cool new place that I am going to love and be able to finally finish school, etc. I want to be happy, but it is hard when you can't take all the people you love with you.
Fuck.
It made me start thinking about missing freakyp and how we have been a little family practically since we moved here. It feels weird not to take him with us and continue making memories with him. And then I started thinking about my family in Orlando and how they really have NO IDEA how my heart breaks not being with them and not seeing the girls growing up. And my brother is heartbroken that we are leaving too, and he's giving me the silent treatment right now (all the way from Georgia) even though I know he doesn't mean too... he's just sad like I am.
But I want to be happy because I am going to this cool new place that I am going to love and be able to finally finish school, etc. I want to be happy, but it is hard when you can't take all the people you love with you.
Fuck.