My world is back, not that ts' been gone, it's just a renovation, rebirth, new wind
I'm so calm and happy today, for like the first time since the begining of this school year. I'm happy that I got back this favorite state of being, knowing who I am and not worrying about life's monotony, monogony routine.
I woke up this morning hearing my mom talking on the phone with my granparents, so I immediately sprung to her and grabed the phone from her hands.
Have u ever had this feeling of missing something and always looking for something?, but u don't know what it is.?! That is the feeling of love, being loved back, being cared for and being in control of ur life - that what it is, we all search for it sometimes but never know what it is exactly that we need.
My grand papa and grand mama are my parents and I mean it, they've given me everything I ever wanted they've made me the person that I am, I am their joy.
I always get wicked excited when I talk to them.
So, then afterwards I called my best friends, people that i grew up with, it's a such happiness to know that no matter where u are, u always have people somewhere in the world that know u best and know what u need and a simple conversation does it all. It's always good to know that u have a place to come back to, a second home, and that u're always welcome there.
When I talk to my old friends, I see myself, I go back to my oringins, it's like going to heaven and being in ur natural habitat, doing things that u like and that u know best.
I feel myself so gifted, so special, cause I have more options than many people that i know here do, but at the same time I feel sorry for them, cause they can not see things and experience life the way that I do, they miss so much, they're so caught up in their daily routine, they can't see life, cause they've never experienced it, they don't know what it is; they only see it on tv or on paper or in numbers. Well too much philosophy for now.
So yeah it's a beautiful day outside even if it's raining, so calm and harmonius.
I've planted some beans in my pots on the balcony as I do every year, first I worked with soil, it was dry so I had to fill it with nutriens and work with it so it be soft and then put it at rest for few days. I love doing it, ever since I was little my grandpa used to take me on his farm, he tought me how to love and appreciate land, appreciate the food that it gives us. It's like an asian traditional phsychological thing we're u appreciate the things in nature that surround u.
Prom is next week, helz yeah, and I'm sitting at the table with so many different people that i have nothing in common with, but that what makes it more exciting, my life is so colorful like people in it and never the same.
Hm, for some reason I can not remeber myself ever being bored in my life, I always do something, actually I remeber being bored waiting in line for something, but that was much of being agrivated than bored, most of the times I'm more tired than bored so word bored doesn't fit at all.
My biggest dream and goal for next year is to learn something good in college and be able to pay it off, so during next summer I could go and visit my country. I miss terribly everyone from overthere and I wish that I could take some of my friends from over here with me, so I could show them what life is like overthere, of well that just a thought for now.
Chris, thanks for reading my entry!
i know that u're studying me under the "microscope" lol
I woke up this morning hearing my mom talking on the phone with my granparents, so I immediately sprung to her and grabed the phone from her hands.
Have u ever had this feeling of missing something and always looking for something?, but u don't know what it is.?! That is the feeling of love, being loved back, being cared for and being in control of ur life - that what it is, we all search for it sometimes but never know what it is exactly that we need.
My grand papa and grand mama are my parents and I mean it, they've given me everything I ever wanted they've made me the person that I am, I am their joy.
I always get wicked excited when I talk to them.
So, then afterwards I called my best friends, people that i grew up with, it's a such happiness to know that no matter where u are, u always have people somewhere in the world that know u best and know what u need and a simple conversation does it all. It's always good to know that u have a place to come back to, a second home, and that u're always welcome there.
When I talk to my old friends, I see myself, I go back to my oringins, it's like going to heaven and being in ur natural habitat, doing things that u like and that u know best.
I feel myself so gifted, so special, cause I have more options than many people that i know here do, but at the same time I feel sorry for them, cause they can not see things and experience life the way that I do, they miss so much, they're so caught up in their daily routine, they can't see life, cause they've never experienced it, they don't know what it is; they only see it on tv or on paper or in numbers. Well too much philosophy for now.
So yeah it's a beautiful day outside even if it's raining, so calm and harmonius.
I've planted some beans in my pots on the balcony as I do every year, first I worked with soil, it was dry so I had to fill it with nutriens and work with it so it be soft and then put it at rest for few days. I love doing it, ever since I was little my grandpa used to take me on his farm, he tought me how to love and appreciate land, appreciate the food that it gives us. It's like an asian traditional phsychological thing we're u appreciate the things in nature that surround u.
Prom is next week, helz yeah, and I'm sitting at the table with so many different people that i have nothing in common with, but that what makes it more exciting, my life is so colorful like people in it and never the same.
Hm, for some reason I can not remeber myself ever being bored in my life, I always do something, actually I remeber being bored waiting in line for something, but that was much of being agrivated than bored, most of the times I'm more tired than bored so word bored doesn't fit at all.
My biggest dream and goal for next year is to learn something good in college and be able to pay it off, so during next summer I could go and visit my country. I miss terribly everyone from overthere and I wish that I could take some of my friends from over here with me, so I could show them what life is like overthere, of well that just a thought for now.
Chris, thanks for reading my entry!
i know that u're studying me under the "microscope" lol