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I can't sleep. I can't---
I don't want to.
...does...does anyone...
[ pause, a muffled clattering noise as she sets the device down and refocuses her thoughts on her intent for this entry rather than all the reasons she would just...prefer not to. this is necessary to salvage what peace of mind she has left... ]
...I'm sorry, I should...it would help if I could would stop stopping every few seconds, wouldn't it? [ the forced not-quite cheerfulness but lightness is very forced but well-meaning, or she hopes it is ]
I was wondering if...
Does...is there anyone preferably clean, preferably organized, preferably---- no, that's...I shouldn't, I can't...this ticking...and animals...at least a person can help with...that's... no... need a roommate...well, I mean more along the lines of someone to live in an apartment with. Not the same room. Definitely not.
Or, even better if there is any other....um...way to stop the ticking besides....pets.
I would be...very grateful. For any ideas.
Um.
Thank you.
[ pause....as if she might say something else....but nope... ]