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[peoplesprincess]

I don't know why these persistent posts about families and parents annoy me so much. It's not like I'm jealous. Or maybe I am; I wouldn't know. I don't tend to self-analyze-- it's pointless. So few people realize that when you start to feel something stupid or messy, the best thing to do is to just ignore it, especially if it's about something that

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[clockmaster]

Aren't you talkative today...

[peoplesprincess]

I've been purposely not thinking about my father lately, but for some reason I feel like talking about him today.

He told me he was proud of me yesterday, and I know he meant it.

[clockmaster]

I see.

But you said that he's brainwashed, how can he mean it?

[ooc: Hakuba is confused :|]

[peoplesprincess]

Semantics. He was brainwashed into meaning it.

[peoplesprincess]

I don't. You see, this is why I never tell people when I like them (and I don't like you, by the way)-- they mistakenly think it means that I care about them.

It's the same with looks. None of you can differentiate between thinking someone is attractive, and being attracted to them.

[peoplesprincess]

Well, it's not something that's supposed to matter to me. I don't care about people, so why should I care when they leave me?

Like I said, it's something I'm working on.

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[knifeurrib]

You actually scare me a lot more then I let on. Which is stupid, because I shouldn't let the world affect me this much - nothing else really matters to me, I guess. For most of my life it's been you, Ty Lee, and Zuko. And my parents, but they only ever wanted me to be the perfect child (even if they do love me) and that... well, that just made thigns harder for me.

Sometimes I wonder if we're actually still friends or if it would've been better to not actually... I don't know. I'm not sure how to talk about this. I've never been good at expressing feelings. Usually I just bottle them up... not sure why I'm so talkative today, anyway.

[peoplesprincess]

I don't scare you enough to keep you, apparently. And goodness knows that you don't like me enough to stay. Even though you claim that you can be both my friend and Zuko's girlfriend, I don't really believe you. And I know you'd let him take you away, too.

I resent you. I don't want to care about you, even a little bit.

[knifeurrib]

I could get into an argument with you about what I really care about and whether or not you're right, but we'd just end up arguing in circles, like we always do.

So, you do care about me?

[peoplesprincess]

Yes. Ty Lee has always been my favorite, in most ways-- that's probably been obvious since we were kids-- but I care about you, too.

I don't know if I want you to fear me-- especially now that we're not really fighting together anymore, and my success doesn't rely on whether or not you obey me. When you just now said that you did a part of me was satisfied (I suppose that was the part that resents you), but I was also a little hurt.

[peoplesprincess]

What does, exactly?

[peoplesprincess]

I can convince myself of anything. If I need to, I can change my entire worldview because it's convenient for me.