long lies
I am a fool. I have believed so many wrong things for so long. I used to believe that given enough time people change, from what i seen they dont. I used to believe my friends wouldnt use me, especially ones ive had forever, I've questioned this one but kept believing it, now i dont. I realize that the closest people to you may be using you, thats why they are close, to make sure they get every last thing to their benifet. When they are done with you they will use you one last time and get other people from you and basically make it plainly obvious they want nothing to do with you, except for what you have to offer, that is. I haven't seen a particular person for 2 months for this very reason. I thought that 2 months was long enough, i'll give them my trust, i mean come on, two months. It might have been longer if it wasnt for the fact that this person started asking me to invite him over (continously bugging me). I decided, ok, obviously he's ready for it to be diffrent this time around, i had even talked to him and things seemed they'd go smoothly once more. I now realise that he hadnt been bugging me the previous two months because he didnt think anyone was at my house, it wasnt until he saw seth at my house did he start bugging me (foolish me, i should have realized this). When he came over we talked for about a minut, then he went and hung out with seth (who i had already told this person how seth was being a jerk to me on the count of he'd been over all summer, and all the annoying things he was doing). All day he was around seth, and seth was annoyed with me too so i didnt see much of them. maybe every 4 hours or so they'd stop in, for what im not sure, it was clear they didnt want anything to do with me. How dare i let myself get into this situation again. I really thought this person had changed. While this person was hanging around seth they decided to take off with me and my brothers bikes without telling anyone. While they were out joy riding his mom called and wanted to know were he was, since he never told my mom were he was going she had no clue, he couldve got my mom into serious trouble. I am a fool, an idiot for giving my trust once more to someone that has shattered it so many times. After all this i realize that it is easier to say forget you, you make my life to frustrating, if he want to steal another one of my friends he can go have his mom drive him all the way to wheeler. I just cant believe how much this person has changed. I see him stealing other peoples personalities thnking it would make him cool, that makes him look lame, i hope he realizes that. If he would have just been himself this might have never happened. I see that if i cant trust him around my friends then i cant trust him period. It will just make life easier for me (and for him now that "he doesnt have to deal with my whining" anymore, plus the fact that he has stolen one last friend, not a very close one, but still a friend). I now tell this person that i can no longer stand to be friends with them. i just cant risk losing anymore friends to him. I now tell him goodbye for the final time, at this thought the very character of eli himself dies.