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I have become a national statistic. I got laid off on Friday. I get two weeks worth of pay and I have no idea when my insurance runs out.
I'm not surprised, really. When a big company thinks about saving money usually the first place they start cutting back on is marketing.
Oh well, hopefully this is a blessing in disguise. I'm going to take the time to do a few things like: obviously find a new job, redesign my freelance website and shop, get my passport renewed for my Canada trip in Sept., and finish painting my old desk that has been sitting outside for like six months.
Remaining active is the key, I think. If I allow myself to become stationary my depression is going to kick in and I'll spend all day in bed or worse playing video games nonstop.
Money is obviously an issue. I think it's an issue with just about everyone right now. We have a few grand in the bank but depending on how long it takes me to find a job, that could go fast. We have debt to pay off, furry babies to take care of, and my monthly medication expense. I'm actually tempted to just stop taking the meds all together to save money, but I know what I'm like without them and I'm not sure thats a wise step.
Hubert and I have an eye doctor appointment coming up that we set up before I got canned. I'm glad we did it, though, since our insurance will only be active for another month or so. We've both been getting bad headaches associated with our eyes. Time for new glasses for both of us.
Did I mention that my birthday was coming up as well? We had planned on buying me a MacBook Pro, but that looks like it won't happen. Which sucks, because they have an educational promotion (which Hubert can get) in which you get a free ipod touch with the purchase of any computer or laptop.
But I think its time to look beyond the material. I watched Fight Club a few weekends ago and I realized I'm just like Tylor Durden before his 'transformation'. Instead of worrying about what material possesions I'm not going to be able to get, I should be thankful that Hubert and I don't have a mortgage or rent to pay, we don't have kids (yet), and we are both physically healthy. We could be worse off.
Some of our friends in Canada, knowing of these recent developments, have offered to save money and give it to us. I cannot explain in words how this makes me feel. We've known these guys for roughly 5 years and only online through chating, emailing, and gaming. Yet, there is such a strong bond of friendship between us that they are willing to go out of their way to help us out financially. I've never been a person to put a large amount of investment and security into online relationships, but these guys and gals are like my family. As absurd as that sounds. I know what they look like. I talk to them on the phone. We share our problems and achievements. Their wellbeing is important to me just as mine is to them. It just seems so silly, because anyone I talk to about having online friends like this simply looks at me as if I've suddenly grown a second head. I guess it's something that only myself and Hubert will ever really appreciate.
I spoke to Derek a few days ago as well. Though we talked about what was going on in our lives, the only real emotion I felt was a very deeply rooted sadness. I miss him. There is no other way to put it. I miss him. I wondered if this was just an ache of loneliness on my part, seeing as I don't have any friends here in Atlanta. But it isn't that. I miss him as a person. Just like I miss John, Glen, Ashley and Caleb and even Alan (sometimes). They simply cannot be replaced.
Anyways, enough meloncholy. I've got stuff to do; people to take care of. Heres to hope. :)