I remember this...
Every song I listen to directly applies to me
I feel sad almost all the time
I can feel my insides dying
and it feels like coming home
I don't want to do this again
I want to sleep, I hate school, I don't want to do any more work, and I hate myself more than any of it.
I'm mad
I'm upset
I'm tired
I'm lonely
I don't know what to do, I've got no plans, nothing to look forward to, and it's my birthday in a week and a half.
I don't want it to be.
All of this being said, it's not nearly as bad as it sounds, in fact I feel very little of any of this, and that might be what worries me the most.
and I really hope this journal entry doesn't come off as anything other than what it is, me getting my feelings out, in text. I'm an open book, I've got nothing to hide.
I feel sad almost all the time
I can feel my insides dying
and it feels like coming home
I don't want to do this again
I want to sleep, I hate school, I don't want to do any more work, and I hate myself more than any of it.
I'm mad
I'm upset
I'm tired
I'm lonely
I don't know what to do, I've got no plans, nothing to look forward to, and it's my birthday in a week and a half.
I don't want it to be.
All of this being said, it's not nearly as bad as it sounds, in fact I feel very little of any of this, and that might be what worries me the most.
and I really hope this journal entry doesn't come off as anything other than what it is, me getting my feelings out, in text. I'm an open book, I've got nothing to hide.