Insomnia...still....
So, here I am 3:20 in the morning. Why can't I sleep? I lay there for hours on end not doing anything. I think. I have a very unique thinking pattern that allows me to become lost in my thougts involuntarilly. One thought will trigger the next and so forth in a dominos pattern. Talking to myself, also. I'll talk to myself. You know, a slight comment here and there. And then..."Corey, stop talking to yourself." But by telling myself to stop talking to myself, I am, in fact, talking to myself. Then, I'll tell myself to stop talking to myself because by saying all that I'm still talking to myself. Stop talking to yourself. On and on and on; for hours. And this and other things, such as inevitable thoughts of things that disturb me combined with talking to myself and other mental distractions, I get no sleep. I want my body to shutdown. I want to lie on a mattress of perfection and have total comfort. I want my bodily functions, blood-flow, and, especially, mind to shutdown for a total of ten minutes so I can awake refreshed and rested. Absolute cease of life in T-minus 3, 2, 1...