Jan 10, 2005 01:02
Well, for those of you who don't know I have chosen not to do UIL this year for theatre. This is an exxtremely difficult thing for me Not to do. My first year of theatre this was the first show I was involved in. From then on it has meant a great deal to me. The relationships you build in UIL are relationchips that last forever. Auditions start tommorow and I really want to just turn around and go for it, but God doesn't want me to.
I have friends threatening not to talk to me for not doing it, a disapointed theatre teacher, and some really complicated ride situations to come. However, I just know this is God's will. Sometimes he has such great stuff in store for us, but in order for us to get the things he has we have to let go of what we have for us.
One of my main goals for this New Year was to walk solely and completely in obedience to him and his law. Last year God told me not to do UIL, I did it anyway...then I got cut for failing a class. I'm not going to take another risk like that. I know that if this is God's will he has a whole lot in store for me. Whether it be getting closer to my family, or getting more time to write music. It could even open up completely new doors of ministry.
I know not everyone in theatre will understand my decision, but just know I really wanted to do UIL, but God has another plan, and his is the only one I trust. I have some close friends in theatre that I love being with and I know it will be painful knowing that they're having fun without me. Then again, it's another sacrifice. I'm going to miss seeing everyone everyday.
God is my one and only. He put everything in place. Even the friends I have built up relationships with. God is everything to me. He's all I want. All I need. I just want to walk favorably in his presence and in his Glory. I want to glorify him in every step I take. He saved me, and raised me. I'm not even just saying that.
When I was short a Father...he was there. He remains here. We cannot separate, cuz he's part of me. I'm chasing after him. His heart. His will. and All the things he has planned for me.
I wish the best for all who are doing UIL. Try not to let me be out of the loop! I love you all.
-Jo