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man...i'm so unsure. You wouldn't suspect it, but i mean come on. I'm not quite sure what i'm unsure about, but i have issues. Things are actually going suprisingly well right now. Except i can't quite get in touch with my real Dad. WE haven't talked in days it's wierd. When we do talk. YOu can tell he knows i've been kind of avoiding him. Which i really haven't I jsut haven't really made an effort. I've felt so alone all the time I haven't talked to him though. He's the one i've always talked to. Everytime it's felt like he just lift my problems off my back. The fact that i've run away just to have fun is shameful. I miss him. I'm going to cry. I've spent so much time with him all my life i don't have anyone else to talk to. I'll figured it out though. It'll take a while to get on track though. It's wierd though. Just starting off again after we having talked in ages. WE have our own language though. It's come out good.

Things are a blank, but not black. white. It's not deep. It's on the surface. I breath fine although it is a little dry. When i blink everything seems to some over me. It's all dropped to a sleep at my feet. They are trapped in their time. While i stand as robotic as a vegetable. The only thing still moving with a purpose in my blood through my heart...but it keeps me alive. I'm here for a reason no doubt. I know what that reason is. I jsut can't seem to put it into motion. So i'll jsut sit here shifting about.Until the sunrises and the moon goes down.

-Jo