Angel In Disguise
Wow. These past few days have been full of happiness but so much pain at the same time. I suppose its just painful to watch the one you love most so happy with someone else. Its just not fair at times... no, its just not fair all the time. You feel like youre floating when youre with that one person, time stops, the room dissapears and its just you two surrounded by nothing by the air you wish to share. They have got you wrapped around them and you can hardly breathe without them, but at the same time you cant breathe with them because each time they so much as move an inch you feel as though lightning has just struck your heart... a beam of wonderful, loving lightning which then lights up the room and lets you, if only for a second, look into the eyes of this one that you love. You dont want to go to sleep because you dont want to miss anything... even if that anything is just hearing the one that you love take a breath. In your mind there are multiple problems just running around... too many to count... they make you crazy... you feel as though there is no hope... but when you roll over you see that person and you know youll be okay. I never was someone to believe in that deep love feeling, i always thought it was phony, somthing just made up by the minds of some crazy people who where feeling something and decided to name it love.. but now i know...now im positive that is real. Sometimes you just want to run and hide, get away from everything before it turns around and hurts you, but you cant make yourself take your eyes off this person for more than a second. It takes an amazing person to make a pitch black room glow, but when they can... ahhh it just makes your heart melt. You feel as though there is a whole world out there to get that person and you must protect them with nothing but your heart and body. The only way you can protect them is to hold on forever and never let go. I used to be one to get annoyed with the people who would write about love everyday and how great it felt, but i think that is because they didnt feel half of what im feeling right now and they already claimed to be in love. I pity all of those who believe that just because they blush when they see that boy in the hallway they are in love. When the touch of ones hand makes your heart melt and your breathing stop, when looking into the eyes of a person makes you realize that you have a reason to live, when being in the arms of that certain person makes you want to drop to your knees and thank god for this present, this angel in disguise... that is love... true, deep, passionate love between one human and another... and nothing... NOTHING can ever compare to it.