she said shes leaving
windows down listening to the music that made us feel infinite. damn that old feeling. something is stopping me from getting where i need to be. the last three years i have felt every time i grow up a little bit. but this one thing hasnt ever changed. everything else has. but this one thing. and its the only thing i've ever asked to change. i know the feeling of being liberated from something thats held you down forever. i know the feeling of doing something for yourself and not for others. i know the feeling of being responsible. i know the feeling of making my self happy. three years ago i was just a kid. now i'm more. but still not enough. i really dont overreact about things as much as i overanalyze them. i am constantly thinking about what someone says to me. even if i know the meaning of it. and its simply put to me. i always think theres something more too it. because theres something more to me. my brain never stops moving. i know theres something for me somewhere. cuz the way my mind thinks i'm not suppose to be a waitress forever. i have greater plans, like inspiring a nation, or just simply sharing my opinion enough to where it effects someone somewhere. i have a feeling i can control the one thing i want to control. i already do and dont know it. i havent figured out how to completely control it. but i will.