Knowing that there is worse pain doesn't make present pain hurt any less.
This weekend was so long, not in a good way , more in a "it felt like I lived at work" kind of way , haha. Anyways, today I have the day off. I know I have a lot of things to do, but I cant seem to get myself out of the house! I did call to make an appointment to get my car inspected, which is good since it was up on the 31st. I also made it to the gym this morning. Yay for me. I was about to go clean out my car, I desperatly need to do this, but...it is now pouring outside. Oops, should have done that earlier, but instead I opted for a nap :).
I just found out that my dad took a seminar for a couple months on how to deal with losing a loved one. I think that is really great that he did that. I actaully would like to go to something like that myself. Sometimes it just feels too unbearable to deal with and I try not to think about stuff, but then at night I get these really bad rushes of sadness that actaully feel painful. Its hard to explain. Also in the morning, sometimes I just wake up wanting to go over to my moms house to visit, and the thought that I cant becomes overwhelming, and then I dont feel like doing anything but staying in bed all day. Of course I dont , my mom would be upset with me if I lived like that, my mother was very much a live your life to the fullest kind of gal.
The other day I went rollerblading with my friend Kelly from work , and we had a really great talk . She too took care of someone really close to her until he passed away. She expalined to me some of the things he went through, which in turn helped me feel better. It just helped me realize that somethings people go through before they die is natural and my mom wasnt the only person that had to go through that. Not that I would ever wish these things upon anybody ever, I'm not quite sure what I am trying to say. Anyways, it was just nice to talk to someone. So thank you kelly, I'm sure you will never read this , but thank you anyways :) haha.
So I guess I better be off to do something productive with my day off. I hope everyone has a great day !
I just found out that my dad took a seminar for a couple months on how to deal with losing a loved one. I think that is really great that he did that. I actaully would like to go to something like that myself. Sometimes it just feels too unbearable to deal with and I try not to think about stuff, but then at night I get these really bad rushes of sadness that actaully feel painful. Its hard to explain. Also in the morning, sometimes I just wake up wanting to go over to my moms house to visit, and the thought that I cant becomes overwhelming, and then I dont feel like doing anything but staying in bed all day. Of course I dont , my mom would be upset with me if I lived like that, my mother was very much a live your life to the fullest kind of gal.
The other day I went rollerblading with my friend Kelly from work , and we had a really great talk . She too took care of someone really close to her until he passed away. She expalined to me some of the things he went through, which in turn helped me feel better. It just helped me realize that somethings people go through before they die is natural and my mom wasnt the only person that had to go through that. Not that I would ever wish these things upon anybody ever, I'm not quite sure what I am trying to say. Anyways, it was just nice to talk to someone. So thank you kelly, I'm sure you will never read this , but thank you anyways :) haha.
So I guess I better be off to do something productive with my day off. I hope everyone has a great day !