OMG!!!
I GOT BANGS!!!! BANGS!!!! I HAVEN'T HAD BANGS SINCE I WAS IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL!!!! I HATE THEM!!!! THEY ARE SOOO UGLY!!!!
On another note-- I am soooo bored!!! It's Friday night and I'm stuck at home because--->"last weekend I went to EPCOT, the week before I went to the movies, yesterday I went to the movies, and tomarrow I have the wonderful privlige of going to dinner with my gay a** parents!!! WOO HOO!!--****SARCASTIC TONE**!! GOD I HATE THIS FAMILY!!
These bangs are annoying the hell out of me!! I feel like there is someting on my face (there is something on my face) and I just want to move them!! But of course my bro's in town and is spending the whole weekend in the bathroom because he only comes out at like 3 o'clock in the morning when he goes out! And I get in trouble for going out once a weekend!!! This is soooo gay!!! Anyway--so I can't get a clip to get these things out of my face!!! UGGG-MAJOR!!!! Everyone says I look like my sister--WHOS SEVEN!!!! These things make me look sooo young!! Yet, I feel sooo old!! I'll be sixteen in 4 days!!! How scary is that!! On one end I don't wanna grow up!! But then again I can't wait to get old and get out of this hell hole!! Looking back at my life I realize that....it was nothing but a bunch of gay a** mistakes and lucky a** moves, not to mention being tormented by my parents!! For example: one of the most deep embedded memories of my child hood is going to school one day and during recess picking my mother a bunch of flowers just cuz I wanted to be nice. When I got home to give them to her I got yelled at--"WHY THE F*** WOULD YOU BRING ME THAT S***!!! THEY'RE A BUNCH OF WEEDS!!!" And ya'll wonder why I hate my mother!! Here's another one: I had one of the worst nightmare's in my life so, being a little girl I went to my parents room, only to get yelled at once more--"WHAT THE F*** ARE YOU DOING!! I'M TRYING TO SLEEP!! GO BACK TO YOUR ROOM!!!"--it doesn't end there--I spent the night on the bathroom floor and left the light on--next mourning--take a guess...yup..."WHAT THE F*** ARE YOU DOING!!! YOU'RE WASTING ELECTRICITY!!" You know I got the belt for that! I also got the belt for accidently peeing in my bed when I was little!! I got the belt for singing at the dinner table and accidently knocking over a glass of water! I got the belt when my brother threaten me with a knife and ended up cutting his OWN wrist!! Both my brother and I got the belt when MY COUSIN stuck a marker in the fan and got a mark on the wall and a spot on the carpet in my brothers room!! And my favorite--> getting the belt for getting sick at school and having the teacher call my parents because I threw up in the middle of class!!! And people wonder why I act completly different in the presence of my parents!! Get it now? **crying** I will never have kids! I couldn't bare doing that to someone and not even caring in the least. I guess I should be greatful that my parents don't beat me or sexually harass me or are even alive--but it's kinda hard to look past the negative aspects and just except life when you see other family's who have it so much better. I know one of God's commandments is "thou shall not cavit {spell chack} they neighbors goods" but if God didn't want us to be jealous he should have given us all the same type of things so jealously wasn't such an issue! Or better yet just even out the positives--for example--some people have beauty, brains, a voice, and can act!! What is that about? Liek Christina Aguilera--she looks like that and can sing!! Same for most singers!! I guess that's why I love Britney Spears so much--she's pretty and all but she can't sing!! **crooked smile--tear on cheek**
On another note--I'm listening to that song "Forever and for Always" by Shania Twain. I love this song!!
"In your arms I can still feel the way you
want me when you hold me
I can still hear the words you whispered
when you told me
I can stay right here forever in your arms
And there ain't no way--
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't no way--
and there ain't not how
I'll never see that day....
[Chorus:]
'Cause I'm keeping you
forever and for always
We will be together all of our day
Wanna wake up every
morning to your sweet face--always
In your heart--I can still hear
a beat for every time you kiss me
And when we're apart,
I know how much you miss me
I can feel your love for me in your heart
And there ain't no way--
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't now way--
and there ain't no how
I'll never see that day....
In your eyes--(I can still see
the look of the one) I can still see
the look of the one who really loves me
(I can still feel the way that you want)
The one who wouldn't put anything
else in the world above me
(I can still see love for me) I can
still see love for me in your eyes
(I still see the love)"
I wish I had someone like that!! I love that video!! It's so cute!!
I got the Notebook so I'm going to go watch sexy a** Ryan Gosling and cry my eyes out! Muah!!
kisses,
emily
P.S. Sry this was soo long--I had to vent
On another note-- I am soooo bored!!! It's Friday night and I'm stuck at home because--->"last weekend I went to EPCOT, the week before I went to the movies, yesterday I went to the movies, and tomarrow I have the wonderful privlige of going to dinner with my gay a** parents!!! WOO HOO!!--****SARCASTIC TONE**!! GOD I HATE THIS FAMILY!!
These bangs are annoying the hell out of me!! I feel like there is someting on my face (there is something on my face) and I just want to move them!! But of course my bro's in town and is spending the whole weekend in the bathroom because he only comes out at like 3 o'clock in the morning when he goes out! And I get in trouble for going out once a weekend!!! This is soooo gay!!! Anyway--so I can't get a clip to get these things out of my face!!! UGGG-MAJOR!!!! Everyone says I look like my sister--WHOS SEVEN!!!! These things make me look sooo young!! Yet, I feel sooo old!! I'll be sixteen in 4 days!!! How scary is that!! On one end I don't wanna grow up!! But then again I can't wait to get old and get out of this hell hole!! Looking back at my life I realize that....it was nothing but a bunch of gay a** mistakes and lucky a** moves, not to mention being tormented by my parents!! For example: one of the most deep embedded memories of my child hood is going to school one day and during recess picking my mother a bunch of flowers just cuz I wanted to be nice. When I got home to give them to her I got yelled at--"WHY THE F*** WOULD YOU BRING ME THAT S***!!! THEY'RE A BUNCH OF WEEDS!!!" And ya'll wonder why I hate my mother!! Here's another one: I had one of the worst nightmare's in my life so, being a little girl I went to my parents room, only to get yelled at once more--"WHAT THE F*** ARE YOU DOING!! I'M TRYING TO SLEEP!! GO BACK TO YOUR ROOM!!!"--it doesn't end there--I spent the night on the bathroom floor and left the light on--next mourning--take a guess...yup..."WHAT THE F*** ARE YOU DOING!!! YOU'RE WASTING ELECTRICITY!!" You know I got the belt for that! I also got the belt for accidently peeing in my bed when I was little!! I got the belt for singing at the dinner table and accidently knocking over a glass of water! I got the belt when my brother threaten me with a knife and ended up cutting his OWN wrist!! Both my brother and I got the belt when MY COUSIN stuck a marker in the fan and got a mark on the wall and a spot on the carpet in my brothers room!! And my favorite--> getting the belt for getting sick at school and having the teacher call my parents because I threw up in the middle of class!!! And people wonder why I act completly different in the presence of my parents!! Get it now? **crying** I will never have kids! I couldn't bare doing that to someone and not even caring in the least. I guess I should be greatful that my parents don't beat me or sexually harass me or are even alive--but it's kinda hard to look past the negative aspects and just except life when you see other family's who have it so much better. I know one of God's commandments is "thou shall not cavit {spell chack} they neighbors goods" but if God didn't want us to be jealous he should have given us all the same type of things so jealously wasn't such an issue! Or better yet just even out the positives--for example--some people have beauty, brains, a voice, and can act!! What is that about? Liek Christina Aguilera--she looks like that and can sing!! Same for most singers!! I guess that's why I love Britney Spears so much--she's pretty and all but she can't sing!! **crooked smile--tear on cheek**
On another note--I'm listening to that song "Forever and for Always" by Shania Twain. I love this song!!
"In your arms I can still feel the way you
want me when you hold me
I can still hear the words you whispered
when you told me
I can stay right here forever in your arms
And there ain't no way--
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't no way--
and there ain't not how
I'll never see that day....
[Chorus:]
'Cause I'm keeping you
forever and for always
We will be together all of our day
Wanna wake up every
morning to your sweet face--always
In your heart--I can still hear
a beat for every time you kiss me
And when we're apart,
I know how much you miss me
I can feel your love for me in your heart
And there ain't no way--
I'm lettin' you go now
And there ain't now way--
and there ain't no how
I'll never see that day....
In your eyes--(I can still see
the look of the one) I can still see
the look of the one who really loves me
(I can still feel the way that you want)
The one who wouldn't put anything
else in the world above me
(I can still see love for me) I can
still see love for me in your eyes
(I still see the love)"
I wish I had someone like that!! I love that video!! It's so cute!!
I got the Notebook so I'm going to go watch sexy a** Ryan Gosling and cry my eyes out! Muah!!
kisses,
emily
P.S. Sry this was soo long--I had to vent