spiderwebs
another lovely day, kind of...
i woke up this morning in an amazing mood. one of this pinch me feelings. i started off my day right, a few good morning text's with justin. got ready and headed off to work. there was this huge blow up there, i dont really want to get into the details but i pretty much just walked out. i was so fed up. anyhow, my boss obviously didnt want me to quit cause he had this long convo with me and told me about how much he likes my work, and how im one of his best servers...so all is well there. anywho, amidst all this i managed to sneak in a phone call to justin, stupid phone cut off my voicemail though. i was a little too upset to call back and leave another, so i gave up. about 3 minutes later, he called...he was on his break and heard what was left of my message and he wanted to make sure i was okay. it feels nice to have someone who cares.
came home, went to the post office (ew $24.20 to mail a 3lb package to NY by Xmas), finished up my christmas shopping, got my mom, came home and relaxed...got a nice little nap in...woke up to a text from justin, those always make me smile.carried on a texting conversation until he called me at 9. i ended up talking to him while doing the most random things...he laughs at me and tells me im cute cause im so random...whats so random about talking to grampa and sister about dog bones, then xmas present peeping, sitting on the ab lounge and walking on a treadmill, hes crazy = )
had my work party at 10:15 tonite, so i talked to him up until i was at the party, inside and about 15 minutes into it. i couldnt believe how much i thought about him all nite, it was this constant "omg justin would love this" or "i wish he were here" feeling. i like that! at about 12, all the 21 and overs headed to fridays @ the block. i was the first there and i ran into edgar and yara...drank a beer (just one, im sooo fuckin proud of myself)yara and i ended up karaoking together which was a fuckin blast. i saw alot of people from work that i havent seen in a while since they are the higher ups now and spend more time at other restaraunts. all in all, it was a good day.
anyways, im really looking forward to what the future holds for justin and myself. im not afraid to say future because hes not afraid to say it. we both know that theres so much potential for something amazing, that we dont fear it. he loves to write and he told me hes always writing negative things, but since hes met me he has insipration to write more positively...and he has. he read to me some things hes written about me and i swear, i get a little teary eyed, its amazing. i try hard sometimes to hold back, cause i still have that putting myself out there fear, but when he does things like that its so hard. i just wanna pour out all these emotions and feelings on the table, and when i do...he embraces them, compares them to the equally wonderful feelings he has and assures me that this isnt a dream at all. i texted him today with "you make me feel, not only things i never thought i could feel, but things i was afraid to feel" i felt like i was really putting myself out there for him, and he responded with "well its a mutual feeling, i didnt think i wanted to feel this way about a girl again..and its only going to grow". i just want to spend every minute with him, but i know the time we spend apart is just as important as they time we spend together. i just wanna call him right now and tell him about my night and how he was on my mind all day. i get to see him thursday, and possibly sunday too...by then ill have my digital camera and im gonna have to take cute pics of him <3 le sigh, le falling
ok, nite nite time...work in the AM. last day then i get my 3 day break!!! eff ya!
i woke up this morning in an amazing mood. one of this pinch me feelings. i started off my day right, a few good morning text's with justin. got ready and headed off to work. there was this huge blow up there, i dont really want to get into the details but i pretty much just walked out. i was so fed up. anyhow, my boss obviously didnt want me to quit cause he had this long convo with me and told me about how much he likes my work, and how im one of his best servers...so all is well there. anywho, amidst all this i managed to sneak in a phone call to justin, stupid phone cut off my voicemail though. i was a little too upset to call back and leave another, so i gave up. about 3 minutes later, he called...he was on his break and heard what was left of my message and he wanted to make sure i was okay. it feels nice to have someone who cares.
came home, went to the post office (ew $24.20 to mail a 3lb package to NY by Xmas), finished up my christmas shopping, got my mom, came home and relaxed...got a nice little nap in...woke up to a text from justin, those always make me smile.carried on a texting conversation until he called me at 9. i ended up talking to him while doing the most random things...he laughs at me and tells me im cute cause im so random...whats so random about talking to grampa and sister about dog bones, then xmas present peeping, sitting on the ab lounge and walking on a treadmill, hes crazy = )
had my work party at 10:15 tonite, so i talked to him up until i was at the party, inside and about 15 minutes into it. i couldnt believe how much i thought about him all nite, it was this constant "omg justin would love this" or "i wish he were here" feeling. i like that! at about 12, all the 21 and overs headed to fridays @ the block. i was the first there and i ran into edgar and yara...drank a beer (just one, im sooo fuckin proud of myself)yara and i ended up karaoking together which was a fuckin blast. i saw alot of people from work that i havent seen in a while since they are the higher ups now and spend more time at other restaraunts. all in all, it was a good day.
anyways, im really looking forward to what the future holds for justin and myself. im not afraid to say future because hes not afraid to say it. we both know that theres so much potential for something amazing, that we dont fear it. he loves to write and he told me hes always writing negative things, but since hes met me he has insipration to write more positively...and he has. he read to me some things hes written about me and i swear, i get a little teary eyed, its amazing. i try hard sometimes to hold back, cause i still have that putting myself out there fear, but when he does things like that its so hard. i just wanna pour out all these emotions and feelings on the table, and when i do...he embraces them, compares them to the equally wonderful feelings he has and assures me that this isnt a dream at all. i texted him today with "you make me feel, not only things i never thought i could feel, but things i was afraid to feel" i felt like i was really putting myself out there for him, and he responded with "well its a mutual feeling, i didnt think i wanted to feel this way about a girl again..and its only going to grow". i just want to spend every minute with him, but i know the time we spend apart is just as important as they time we spend together. i just wanna call him right now and tell him about my night and how he was on my mind all day. i get to see him thursday, and possibly sunday too...by then ill have my digital camera and im gonna have to take cute pics of him <3 le sigh, le falling
ok, nite nite time...work in the AM. last day then i get my 3 day break!!! eff ya!