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ok so today wasn't all that bad. we put a rally on at my school, it was pretty awesome. this kid cj sang an aaron carter song during the practice sessions, so i put in one of my mix cd's in and sang basket case by green day. then it turns out the guy terrance, that i hosted with likes blink 182 alot so we did a duet to aliens exsist by blink, which was pretty badass funny. then cody (i called him a poser at the beginning of the school year because he wore a taking back sunday tee, and then said his favorite song by them was 'hot chicks', then last week he came and sat by me (wearing shorts) and told me he shaved his legs, i told him to masturbate in private and he said only if I came with him...) so Cody comes in when i turned on Anarchy in the Uk (sex pistols) and turns out he KNOWS the song and starts singing with the nearest mic, so we ended up having a rock show... lol. it was pretty funny. right on the last line of Anarcht (i want to be/anarchy/i get pissed/destroy) our total stiff of a vice-principle walks in... omg it was so funny, it looked like we shoved a pool cue up his... *ahem* and then he walked out. so when i air guitared the last chords, cody puts his arm around my shoulder and kissed me on the cheek. then he said 'that was hot babe' and i was like 'fuck yeah'... lol. i think he likes me.... lol. too bad, he's got as slutty girlfriend *tear, snigger* his loss.
ok here's that 30 song thing again.... guess the songs....you'll never get them all!! muahaha
- i almost got drunk at school at 14, where i almost made out with homecoming queen, who almost went on to become miss texas, but lost to a slut with much bigger breastes, and i almost had you....
- you can sleep in your own bed tonight, sleep away the silent pain that's screaming out my name, you can sleep in your own bed tonight, i hope for your sake you don't wake up, as broken as i am, for a lack of better words to say, all i said was goodnight...
- and in the darkest nights, if my memory serves me right, i'll never turn back time, forgetting you, but not the time...
- i feel drunk, but i'm sober, i'm young and i'm underpaid, i'm tired but i'm working, yeah, i care but i'm restless, i'm here but i'm really gone, i'm wrong and i'm sorry baby, what it all comes down to, is that everything is going to be quite alright, cuz i've got one hand in my pocket and the other one is flicking a cigarette...
- load up on guns and bring your friends, its fun to lose and to pretend,she's over bored and self assured, oh no, i know a dirty word, hello, hello, hello, how low?....
- the loss of friends you didn't have, i called you when the time is right, are you in, or are you out?
- on a cold wet afternoon, no room for love and emptiness, by a freeway, i confess i was lost in the pages of a book full of death, reading how we'll die alone, and if a god will lay to rest anywhere you want to go, in your house, i long to be, room by room, patiently, i'll wait for you there alone....
- this may never start, we could fall apart, and i'd be your memory, lost your sense of fear, feelings insincere, could i be your memory?
- right, now.... i am an antichrist, i am an anarchist, i don't know what i want, but i know how to get it, i want to destroy the passerby.... (its the cover version, good luck naming the artist losers!!lol)
- oh so wrong my loving goes, under the fog, fog fog, and i believe that i'm all, well i'm just a poor little baby, cuz, well i believed them all....
- three chalk outlines sleep in the dirty street and in our beds, under the sheets, they're the halo of guilt hanging around your neck, next to the rosary you count, falling asleep and we're praying to treat the symptoms of letting go of all our hope....
- take away the sensation inside, bitter sweet migraine in my head, its like the throbbing toothache of the mind, i can't take this feelin' anymore....
- one baby to another says 'i'm lucky to have met you, i don't care what you think unless it is about me'
- sit around and watch the tube, but there's nothing on, change the channel for an hour or two, twiddle my thumbs for just a bit, thinking of all the same old shit....
- this room is full of rehersals, i'm sick of the boundaries, i miss you so much....
- pushing down on me, pushing down on you, no matter where *under pressure* that pulls a building down, splits a family in two *oh under pressure*
- got a crush on a pretty pistol, should i tell her that i feel this way? father told us to be faithful got a crush on a pretty pistol, should i tell her that i feel this way?
- this body's left the soul, could we have known? never would i have helped to nail down, nothing to gain, so here's the clincher....
- i'm the son of rage of love, the jesus of suburbia, from bible of none of the above, a steady diet of soda pop and ritalin, no one ever from my sins in hell as far as i can tell...
- i got my head, but my head is unraveling, can't keep control, can't tell where its traveling, i got my heart, but my heart is no good, when you're the only one thats understood....
- black hole sun, won't you come, won't you come and wash away the rain, black hole sun won't you come, won't you come....
- every night i dreeam the same dream, of getting older and older all of the time, i ask you now, what does this mean? are all these problems just in my mind?
- you said it once before, you don't do those thigs you used to do anymore, you say in doubt, we're fading out, forgetting who we used be....
- the same to find the words 24 hours ago, and still i'm singing, spirit take me up with you....
- come up to the party like my name is el nino, hanging out and smoking in the back of an el camino, as a kid was a skid, no one knew me by name, crashed my own house party because nobody came,well i know i'm not the one you thought you knew back in high school, the one you talked to but never react to,attention we crave, don't tell us to behave, i'm sick of hearing that you're rich....
- come as you are, as you were, as i want you to be, as a friend as a triend, as an old enemy....
- this night, walk the dead in the solitary style, and crash the cemetery gates, in the dress your husband hates....
- he looks in the mirror and tells himself that he is the bomb, she has her curlers set her credit card is paring the fund, he's not that old, i've been told, a strong sexual pull, they go out everyday, no they don't even care at all...
- sell the kids for food, weather changes moods, spring is here again, reproductive glands...
- in the beginning, back in 1955, some man didn't know about the rock and roll show, and all that jazz, see the white man had the jazz, and the black man had the blues, and then he said let there be light....
woohoo! song title and artist por favor (please) haha try your worst...
::School ::
-are you still in school: sadly
you drop out: no i'm going to college....
last GPA you got (or current): of course 4.0, i'm doomed to be a ceo NOOOOOO
-do/did you buy lunch or bring it: brought it
play sports for a school team: basketball (mr. lopez and i want me to wrestle though
- do/did you do any extracurricular activities: i get asked but no
favorite dance this year: none
- favorite dance in school: same
: Favorites :
- number: 13 and6
- clothing brands: hottopic, heavy red, my name is cearra (minority) thats my brand btw
- shoes: vans by far dude
- tv show: wonder showzen, CSI
- sport: softball or baseball
- vegetable: none
fruit: NONE
- movie: GRIND!!! garden state
- magazine: rolling stone, guitar player, guitar world (can you tell i play?)
-male celebrity: gerard way (no duh stupid)
- female celebrity: nicole kidman, whoever plays Ivy in the village
- candy: shockers!! (my perfect drug!!)
- gum: big red
- scent: poison, chanel no. 5, chance by chanel, curious (odd huh?)
- candy bar: snickers
- ice cream: half-baked
- color: blue or red
- season: summer
- holiday: halloween
- band: i have lots, uh most listened to? green day
rapper: the gorillaz (they aren't considered rap, more 'alternative' but fuck that, labels are dumb)
type of music: hmm i wonder.... rock
- thing in your room: my walls
- place to be: kona
- radio station: 93.7 or 98.5
- TV channel: spike or fuse
- junk food: poptarts
- store: hottopic or anchor blue
- shoe brand: vans, man
- fast food: in-n-out, taco tree
- restaurant: cafe d's or um..... chevy's, pei wei's pretty good
- shape: a perfect circle (hehe)
- time of day: night
- country: definitely not this one... probably canada
- state: hawai'i
- mall: sunrise mall and the galleria
- video game: sims2 or tony hawk
- board game: chutes and ladders bitch
- music video: first date- blink 182
- swear word: cunt, way worse that fuck, biznatches
month: june
- scary movie: the mouth of madness
team: the Giants or Kings (heck yes!) the cosimic crushers *snorts*
::Would You Ever ::
- bungee jump: yeah
- sky dive: yeah
- swim with dolphins: yeah
- scuba dive: yes and i have
- go rock climbing: yes
- eat shit for $1,000,000: i'm not that fucked up yet
- turn your back on your friends for personal gain: no way
- steal a friend's boyfriend: nope
- cross-dress: sure
- lie to the police: no
- run from the police: um well... jk
- lie to your parents: yes
- walk up to a stranger and kiss them: if it was someone i knew (lol)
- be an exotic dancer: not for the money i'd make doing it
- walk out of a restaurant without paying: yes
- streak: i've already done that, in the snow, bitch
:Have You Ever :
- flashed someone: noooo
- told the person you liked how you felt: a couple of rare times yeah
- been to Michigan: no.
- gotten really REALLY wasted: not yet
- gone to jail or juvi: haha i wish
- skateboarded: yeah
- skinny dipped: yeah
- stolen anything: no
- broke someones bone: no
- kicked someone's ass: oh yeah, i sterilized him...
- pegged someone in the head with a snowball: yes lauryn, yes i have and you and my father have felt it
- broke a beer bottle: no
- gotten into a bar, under-aged: almost got vodka on a plane though...
- kissed someone of the same sex: yeah
- flipped someone off: duh, that's like one of my hobbies
- gone on a road trip: yeah
- gone on vacation without adult supervision: no
- been to a concert: of course
- been to another country: o canada!!
- talked back to an adult: yeah
- got pulled over: i will when i start driving lol
- got in a car accident: yes
- broke a law: yeah
- given money to a homeless person: yes
- tried to kill yourself: no, i am not important enough (i mean, how lame!?!)
- cried to get out of trouble: oh yeah
- kissed a friend's brother or sister: no
- kissed a brother or sister's friend: ew, that's like sloberers that aren't potty trained, so gross
- dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyway: YES
: Random Questions :
- if you could be any animal, what would you be: panda
- do you remember any of your dreams: yes
- do you dream in color or black and white: both
- do you admit when you need help with a problem: no, i admit it, no
- can people read you like a book: not usually
- what's your biggest fear: fear
- do you talk a lot: depends... yeah... so...
- are you afraid of clowns: NO! *ah, its got me!*
- do you like spiders: yeah
- how about grape kool-aid: i like the grape cherry hybrid actually
- can you drive: i wish
- are you spoiled: hehehe
- are you anti-social: i can be occasionally
- do you see dumb people:yeah, i go to public school
- do you see dead people: who wants to know? * pulls out sig saur*
- any last words: panda panda panda
- now that this is over, what are you going to do: click 'update journal'