Piter Raw Chapter 4

[pennypaperbrain]

Title: Piter Raw (part three of Four Corners of the Western World) Chapter 4 of 8
Author: pennypaperbrain
Fandom Sherlock BBC
Betas: Chloe, eldritchhorrors, russpick by madoshi
Rating: Teen for Chapter 4, NC-17 for the fic
Warnings for this chapter: depictions of bipolar disorder, canon-typical violence
Pairing: Sherlock/John
Wordcount: Chapter 4: 5,004. Fic so far: 16,679

Comments

[mazaher]

I read. It reminded me of an athlete who suffered from some mysterious metabolic condition, and tried himself at some slightly more intensive training after a cure which was expected to bring relief. It didn't, and for the effort he gave, results were below average. The small glimmers of hope here only add to the distress at this point. Sherlock "would like to lie down in the snow and die" but still he walks ahead, and John "can't love him back to sanity". I do get how this is the very moment when shooting a loved one in the head and then shoot oneself may seem like a good idea, and the reason Sherlock doesn't do it is that he implicitly *trusts* John wanting them both to live on for more serious reasons than commonplace opinions about "the gift of life".
Also, Kolyvanov helped me focus on the other killers and the way you made them into problematic characters of their own, with lives in which (as always) good and bad mixed. It was something which I had not mentioned so far, taken by J&S's plight, but that kept nagging at the back of my mind. The bad guys are just guys,and the main characters in their own stories, for better or worse, although it is not their stories which are being told here. Thanks

[pennypaperbrain]

Ah, you look so thoroughly into things and come up with aspects of my stories I hadn't thought of myself. I just pasted 'the reason Sherlock doesn't do it...' into my work in progress document as that is, of course, just it. There isn't and probably never has been anyone else from whom Sherlock would take the statement 'you should keep living' on faith. But now there's John. Without him, Sherlock would probably reach a certain point and check out of life as a matter of, as he sees it, logic.

[mazaher]

I can also see the logic in that. But somehow trust is more rare than logic, and precious for that reason if for none else.