i miss who you were, not what you've become...
well i think i have a lot to say so i'll just do the ol' plus minus thing...though i'll probably not end up with as much as i think...unimportant since no one reads this anyway...which is also unimportant...and there's a dear peaches licking my face :)
+i have started school again after a year and a half break. damn it is good :) taking photography, drawing, and basic spoken french. it's really nice to be doing something even though i don't really have a plan of outcome. it feels really good to be back despite the fact it's ccri aka satan's asshole (no, it's not the DMV...if dane cook ever went to ccri in warwick i think he would agree)
+my teachers (so far) are really cool. especially my french teacher :) she's a firecracker but i hope i never get on her bad side cuz i think that would be ugly
+thank god for cat. he's a photographer and is so far being absolutely amazing about helping me with everything since i've never dabbled in real professional photography. i would be quite lost without the other stupidest white person in america. i'm very glad i get along with him and mat's mom so well. they're fun people to spend a day with
-my photography class is really expensive what with equitment i need and such
-and i have no money
-and my school schedule cuts hours i can work so people don't hire me...or i just suck...which is possible i s'pose :P lol
+but i have an amazing grandmother who's helping me out :)
+i made friends in all my classes the first day which is awesome...including a guy who's a random friend of mine on myspace who i happened to sit next to...how weird/pathetic is that...lol
+i got an awesome new coat today that i love alot and it's long and warm and not poofy!!
-i need a job...so fucking bad. i hate that i need one. i kinda wish i could be one of those people who just goes to school and doesn't have to worry about money for another three years. but no, i have bills to pay and gas to get and 57 cents to my name. "they told me i was gonna have to work for a living but all i want to do is ride..." oh jackson browne if only we could...
-i could make some pocket money making earrings and selling them at my cousin's salon but i don't have the money to get supplies...how very very sad
+but i might be able to be a bus moniter with mat's mom which works out perfect for my school schedule, has a garenteed week's work, and unemployment during the summer which i think would be sweet...especially if i could work with younger kids cuz i like them better :)
++++i'm pretty much living at mat's which is amazing. i get to go to sleep in his arms and wake up to such a fucking beautiful man (almost) every day that that pretty much outweighs all negatives (though they still suck). i am so in love it's insane and i don't even know if it's legal :-D he takes such amazing care of me and i'm so blessed to be in such a loving and, dare i say, mature and adult relationship. i'll stop gushing though i think i could go on for several pages
+i'm seeing an art therapist which is pretty cool. i finally have in unbiased opinion to whatever things are on my mind or bothering me, or things that make me glad to be alive. and i get to do artsy stuff and that's freaking cool :)
+and in a little less than a week kristen and i will be in boston hanging out with mae :) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
annnnd...*scene*
+i have started school again after a year and a half break. damn it is good :) taking photography, drawing, and basic spoken french. it's really nice to be doing something even though i don't really have a plan of outcome. it feels really good to be back despite the fact it's ccri aka satan's asshole (no, it's not the DMV...if dane cook ever went to ccri in warwick i think he would agree)
+my teachers (so far) are really cool. especially my french teacher :) she's a firecracker but i hope i never get on her bad side cuz i think that would be ugly
+thank god for cat. he's a photographer and is so far being absolutely amazing about helping me with everything since i've never dabbled in real professional photography. i would be quite lost without the other stupidest white person in america. i'm very glad i get along with him and mat's mom so well. they're fun people to spend a day with
-my photography class is really expensive what with equitment i need and such
-and i have no money
-and my school schedule cuts hours i can work so people don't hire me...or i just suck...which is possible i s'pose :P lol
+but i have an amazing grandmother who's helping me out :)
+i made friends in all my classes the first day which is awesome...including a guy who's a random friend of mine on myspace who i happened to sit next to...how weird/pathetic is that...lol
+i got an awesome new coat today that i love alot and it's long and warm and not poofy!!
-i need a job...so fucking bad. i hate that i need one. i kinda wish i could be one of those people who just goes to school and doesn't have to worry about money for another three years. but no, i have bills to pay and gas to get and 57 cents to my name. "they told me i was gonna have to work for a living but all i want to do is ride..." oh jackson browne if only we could...
-i could make some pocket money making earrings and selling them at my cousin's salon but i don't have the money to get supplies...how very very sad
+but i might be able to be a bus moniter with mat's mom which works out perfect for my school schedule, has a garenteed week's work, and unemployment during the summer which i think would be sweet...especially if i could work with younger kids cuz i like them better :)
++++i'm pretty much living at mat's which is amazing. i get to go to sleep in his arms and wake up to such a fucking beautiful man (almost) every day that that pretty much outweighs all negatives (though they still suck). i am so in love it's insane and i don't even know if it's legal :-D he takes such amazing care of me and i'm so blessed to be in such a loving and, dare i say, mature and adult relationship. i'll stop gushing though i think i could go on for several pages
+i'm seeing an art therapist which is pretty cool. i finally have in unbiased opinion to whatever things are on my mind or bothering me, or things that make me glad to be alive. and i get to do artsy stuff and that's freaking cool :)
+and in a little less than a week kristen and i will be in boston hanging out with mae :) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
annnnd...*scene*