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i had a dream last night that i had two daughters, young blonde daughters in pink bathing suits taking swimming lessons at a day camp while i worked all day at some office - not a nice, white-collar office, it was like i was a secretary for some lawyer slash mobster slash money launderer and the office was a total slum, a roach motel. and i wore

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I listened to cold cold water for the first time a month or so ago, not so long ago. My old housemate really loved Mirah, and so she played me some of her songs. Not cold cold water, but light the match and a few others, that I don’t remember now. I loved light the match. Later I looked for the cd that had it at Jackpot, bringing it up to the counter a bit surreptitiously because I was ashamed, the cd came out, what, two years ago, and I’m just buying it now. Michelle Tea wrote about having similar feelings and I was soothed, but still. Sometimes, often, I feel unworthy of living in Portland.
I’m in this weird, transitional phase right now. It feels like everyone is leaving, if not forever at least for a month. And most of the people I’m closest to are on the east coast. Everything feels so temporary right now. So I heard cold cold water, and… I can’t think of a way to describe it! it felt big. I could see the road stretching out to forever in front of me, unrolling like young lust. I listened to it constantly, at bus stops I wanted to tilt my head back and just spin, arms out, eyes to the sky. I was at the very beginnings of what promised to be an epic crush on this guy I vaguely knew, but was sending Amelie-esque notes to. I decided Mirah would be the soundtrack to my romance.

Re: THREE

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okay, so maybe one of my problems is that this is all imagery/phrases/whatever that I've done in my lj, because I INTENDED to incorporate it in my zine, but better. but I don't think I have done it better.

Re: THREE

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ohmygoshmisty,noresponse!howwillilive?!
i will entertain myself by adding MORE comments to this entry EVERY DAY until you update. 33 is the GOAL.

Re: THREE

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what are we on now, six?

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not that much further to go.

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well!
so I went into class today to talk to my professors about maybe saving my ass somehow and not utterly FAILING me, like maybe have me audit or something!. First was the english lit guy, Mr. Megorical!

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and do you KNOW what he SAID?

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he SAID 'well uh i gave you a NO PASS but that's better than like um a FAIL' and I was like OH YEAH WAY BETTER FUCKER! UNFAIR! YOU JUST NO I GOT BETTAH GRAMMAH THAN YOUS AND YER PUNISHIN ME FOR IT! YA HUH

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and then when I was storming off I noticed my writing professor sitting at a desk, she'd been watching all that and you KNOW she's a total dyke (or maybe lesbian, JESUS SOMEONE VERY SMELLY JUST SAT DOWN. dammit) anyway, so she sat down and was like what happened? and I told her every traumatising detail of the past month, mostly about getting arrested and my trial and my lawyer and they're both ultra liberal, the dude turned around and MAYBE that made him think better of NOT PASSING such a stellar community minded activist, ya know? but she ate it up (that sounds abd like I was lyin and I wasn't!) and so!

(btw, I meant BAD up there, not abd)

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so she just gave me a monthandahalf to turn in the last paper. holy jesus! she likes me. *preens*
and, yeah. so that's good. and she gamme 200/200 on my michelle tea life saving paper. YEEHAW

hmm

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what are we at now?

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also look! new pictures!

fifteen!

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only, ummm.
fifteen plus thirty three, I mean minus! aaaah. i hate math.
but almost half way there!

seventeen!

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this is the SEVENTEENTH.
do you like the yeah yeah yeahs? I got MACHINE stuck in my head. Karen O! machine, macheeee yeeeeeen

Re: seventeen!

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also, my roommate! she is so nice! I <3 her. She wants to trade rooms with me, which is partially good (fifty$ less a month in rent for me!) and partially sad, cause I <3<3<3 my room, and I can climb out the window and sit on the roof and smoke and pretend to wait for ALEC to ride up on his bike, though I actually might really be waiting, even though I know it won't happen. hmmm)

Re: seventeen!

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I could write all this in my journal, but I owe a present to one of my friendslist friends and so I'm not updating and ignoring that whole section of the web.