"alllllll ofa sudden"
so i have been a lil depressed. neh basically has a man now and although i still see her, its different. it really sucks. maybe bc its not the guy previously mentioned (sonny) instead its this cat levi that is just not someone i can see her with and i dunno i hope she isnt just settling bc the situation is deeper than that. grr! i wish it was sonny though, bc i love that boy he is so fuckin hilarious and genuine. as honest as they come. too bad chrissyfurr got in the way of that one.
i feel like just giving up on some shit that is probably so damn not worth the worry.
i know its a little selfish, but in all honesty i am not diggin the fact that neh has her lil man. its so elementary but i hate that she basically begs me to come over and then stays on the phone for hours, i hate that he is all she talks about and refers to, it just bugs that things always change. i know she would be the same way, she was during that short brandon fling. *sigh* it really sucks though, hard! not only do i feel like i am losing my best friend but damnit thats my family! fuckashit.
on the other hand there is my mom, who basically thinks i am a ho nowadays. she claims she just "doesnt know what i do or where i go" but i tell her all the time and still, she makes stupid ass references to any and everything that comes out of my mouth. eh. whatever.
school is still school. ill be glad to go to school earlier next semester and get out earlier. i just need to get through this damn semester.
work is work, its short and i am thankful. i get a check every week even though its not too big, its better than nothin.
thats it for now, guess i am really not in the mood. eh.
i feel like just giving up on some shit that is probably so damn not worth the worry.
i know its a little selfish, but in all honesty i am not diggin the fact that neh has her lil man. its so elementary but i hate that she basically begs me to come over and then stays on the phone for hours, i hate that he is all she talks about and refers to, it just bugs that things always change. i know she would be the same way, she was during that short brandon fling. *sigh* it really sucks though, hard! not only do i feel like i am losing my best friend but damnit thats my family! fuckashit.
on the other hand there is my mom, who basically thinks i am a ho nowadays. she claims she just "doesnt know what i do or where i go" but i tell her all the time and still, she makes stupid ass references to any and everything that comes out of my mouth. eh. whatever.
school is still school. ill be glad to go to school earlier next semester and get out earlier. i just need to get through this damn semester.
work is work, its short and i am thankful. i get a check every week even though its not too big, its better than nothin.
thats it for now, guess i am really not in the mood. eh.