yesterday was such a good day!
YESTERDAY WAS SUCH A GOOD DAY.
i was at mclean for 8 hours, which i thought would suck so bad, but i had an amazing time, saw amazing people and friends, and even made some man at NA cry!
saw my doctor, and he gave me a new prescription. a mood stabilizer. he doubled my sleep med. gave me some hope. didnt talk about my ED or my PTSD issues. which is good. i didnt feel like getting into it.
went to group, it was pretty good. no one really talks in it like i do. james hasnt been there.
looking for a new therapist, soley [sp?] due to the fact that i cant afford steve right now. i need massHEALTH to cover my therapy so i can go more oft.
met tamsin there and we walked around, smoked VERY many cigarettes, went to arlington to a starbucks, and just chilled. shes such a good person.
went to a narcotics anonymous meeting there, and heard some really good stuff. once a pickle, you can never be a cucumber again. once an addict, always an addict. even if yr not using. i spoke to the speaker, told him i was new, and he started crying because he saw so much pain in my eyes. he said they were like a window. it made me want to cry so badly. i wanted to talk to him after the meeting again, but tamsin was like oh God lets run away! at the time i agreed, but in retrospect, i could have met a sponser, ya know?
then on the way home my fathers car was stuck in second gear. i was like PLEASE DEAR GOD HAVE THE CAR MAKE IT HOME CAUSE I REALLY GOTTA PEE!
then i went to kevins and chilled with mr.liam, alyson, and rick! who i missed dearly. saw sarah [tb's sister] for a little bit. killed a lot of bugs outside of the house, which was surprisingly fun, even though now i regret just maiming and killing God's creatures for fun.
the best part of the day, however, was seeing scotti non stop. he is a father to me, a soulmate-friend. the reason i believe in God again is because of him - i saw God in his eyes, and that made me believe. for that i am Eternally Grateful. without my belief in God right now, i wouldnt be sober.
i was at mclean for 8 hours, which i thought would suck so bad, but i had an amazing time, saw amazing people and friends, and even made some man at NA cry!
saw my doctor, and he gave me a new prescription. a mood stabilizer. he doubled my sleep med. gave me some hope. didnt talk about my ED or my PTSD issues. which is good. i didnt feel like getting into it.
went to group, it was pretty good. no one really talks in it like i do. james hasnt been there.
looking for a new therapist, soley [sp?] due to the fact that i cant afford steve right now. i need massHEALTH to cover my therapy so i can go more oft.
met tamsin there and we walked around, smoked VERY many cigarettes, went to arlington to a starbucks, and just chilled. shes such a good person.
went to a narcotics anonymous meeting there, and heard some really good stuff. once a pickle, you can never be a cucumber again. once an addict, always an addict. even if yr not using. i spoke to the speaker, told him i was new, and he started crying because he saw so much pain in my eyes. he said they were like a window. it made me want to cry so badly. i wanted to talk to him after the meeting again, but tamsin was like oh God lets run away! at the time i agreed, but in retrospect, i could have met a sponser, ya know?
then on the way home my fathers car was stuck in second gear. i was like PLEASE DEAR GOD HAVE THE CAR MAKE IT HOME CAUSE I REALLY GOTTA PEE!
then i went to kevins and chilled with mr.liam, alyson, and rick! who i missed dearly. saw sarah [tb's sister] for a little bit. killed a lot of bugs outside of the house, which was surprisingly fun, even though now i regret just maiming and killing God's creatures for fun.
the best part of the day, however, was seeing scotti non stop. he is a father to me, a soulmate-friend. the reason i believe in God again is because of him - i saw God in his eyes, and that made me believe. for that i am Eternally Grateful. without my belief in God right now, i wouldnt be sober.