We are normal and self controlled...
I've finally made a decision - I'm applying to Salem State for the fall semester, with a tentative major in English. I will suffer through living with Mom and Dad until I can afford to move out, and I'm going to hold off on getting another job until absolutely 100% necessary for fear of burning myself out again. If I do get another job, it will most likely not be a retail position somewhere, but a waitressing gig where I only work the weekend nights...that or I'll go to a Dunks that's hiring and work the weekend nights as well. It'll suck, and I won't be able to take a vacation for a while...but yeah. I want to go back to school...so I'm going to do it.
I'm very anxious about it...I've been out of school for a bit now, and I'm afraid I won't be able to handle going back...I'm afraid SSC won't take me, that I completely fucked up my academic credibility with that last semester at Newbury (where I divebombed and probably massacred my GPA before dropping out...)...I'm afraid that being around that many people again is going to drive my ever climbing anxiety to a peak, I'm afraid that I won't be able to handle the work load, I'm afraid that I won't be able to work enough to pay my bills...I'm just scared, in general. But I'm going to do it.
Tomorrow before work, I'm going to apply online.
Wish me luck...
~Sagwa~