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Things are getting underway right before my very eyes. There's no stopping it now, work must commence!
Through all the chaos of the living situation, umm, lets not talk about that one, really life isn't all that bad. just really scary. i have no idea how i'm going to pull off this year, i have no idea where or what to do next. well, that's not entirely true, but i'm starting to get cold feet when it comes to my future goals. even near future.
the song writing has been going well. I now have completed two new songs, and am working on a third with guitarist and friend, Dan. He's been giving me free guitar lessons in exchange for voice lessons and jam sessions. Recently we've been working on some new material, some inspired by him, some by me. Our most recent project is mostly my creation, but it's only undergoing the most primary steps so far. We've recently decided to start meeting every tuesday and thursday evening to work on our music. it's great!
the paintingness is also coming along i guess. i finished a still life using only brown and grey grisaille but soon got carried away and painted too many coats last night. then i realized i wasn't even supposed to start the god damn project. also a few abstracts, some charcole experimentation... not much. Not as much as I want to get done. Of course, it's never enough.
i've been doing lots of yoga lately too, and i'm super excited about how i'm slowly getting my flexibility and physical fitness back. it helps me destress... i mean, who would have thought that painting, playing guitar, reading, and writing up a formal analysis of art, or practicing reading music can be so time consuming and stressful. gosh, i'm beginning to think that nomatter what i do in life i'll be stressed. but at least i'm working really hard trying to reduce it as much as possible... and compared to last semester, this is really not so bad. at least this semester i have a clearer idea of that i might be doing next year. even if it's still a tad hazy at this point.
oh and corey is awesome. i'd just like to say that. we paint and do yoga together almost every night.
sometimes i think there are moments we're so god damn cute that someone should just shoot us right then and there. it's lovely :)
so life is this way for now. it's impossible to know if i'm doing the right thing "and i might be walking in the right direction, but often it's hard to know, am i being too hard on myself or not hard enough at all? do i have appropriate goals, the right mix between big and small, realistic hopes or idealistic flaws, i dont know all this, it's why i question it i guess..."
Through all the chaos of the living situation, umm, lets not talk about that one, really life isn't all that bad. just really scary. i have no idea how i'm going to pull off this year, i have no idea where or what to do next. well, that's not entirely true, but i'm starting to get cold feet when it comes to my future goals. even near future.
the song writing has been going well. I now have completed two new songs, and am working on a third with guitarist and friend, Dan. He's been giving me free guitar lessons in exchange for voice lessons and jam sessions. Recently we've been working on some new material, some inspired by him, some by me. Our most recent project is mostly my creation, but it's only undergoing the most primary steps so far. We've recently decided to start meeting every tuesday and thursday evening to work on our music. it's great!
the paintingness is also coming along i guess. i finished a still life using only brown and grey grisaille but soon got carried away and painted too many coats last night. then i realized i wasn't even supposed to start the god damn project. also a few abstracts, some charcole experimentation... not much. Not as much as I want to get done. Of course, it's never enough.
i've been doing lots of yoga lately too, and i'm super excited about how i'm slowly getting my flexibility and physical fitness back. it helps me destress... i mean, who would have thought that painting, playing guitar, reading, and writing up a formal analysis of art, or practicing reading music can be so time consuming and stressful. gosh, i'm beginning to think that nomatter what i do in life i'll be stressed. but at least i'm working really hard trying to reduce it as much as possible... and compared to last semester, this is really not so bad. at least this semester i have a clearer idea of that i might be doing next year. even if it's still a tad hazy at this point.
oh and corey is awesome. i'd just like to say that. we paint and do yoga together almost every night.
sometimes i think there are moments we're so god damn cute that someone should just shoot us right then and there. it's lovely :)
so life is this way for now. it's impossible to know if i'm doing the right thing "and i might be walking in the right direction, but often it's hard to know, am i being too hard on myself or not hard enough at all? do i have appropriate goals, the right mix between big and small, realistic hopes or idealistic flaws, i dont know all this, it's why i question it i guess..."