EMO RANT ALERT
AnimeLord588 (9:07:11 PM): i gave him the best advice i could
AnimeLord588 (9:07:16 PM): so he dont fuck up like i did
TenorSax Mishee (9:08:37 PM): I really appreciate it.
TenorSax Mishee (9:08:49 PM): He/Tiffany didn't tell you why I did it, did they?
AnimeLord588 (9:08:58 PM): no
TenorSax Mishee (9:09:49 PM): I honestly just wanted to get my life back together.. I'm having a really hard time right now, and today he didn't make it any better.
TenorSax Mishee (9:12:33 PM): My dad is really sick and he's been to the doctor, but he won't tell me what's wrong with him, my mom's been bitching me out for the past week because of something that happened when I was like 12 and she didn't find out until the last time I spent the night with her, my grades are going downhill and I'm begginging to show signs of that carpal tunnel thing because I type so much all day.
AnimeLord588 (9:12:53 PM): ooo
AnimeLord588 (9:12:59 PM): dont get on aim no more
AnimeLord588 (9:13:03 PM): take comp break
TenorSax Mishee (9:13:08 PM): Can't do it.
TenorSax Mishee (9:13:39 PM): I have TWO computer classes every day.
AnimeLord588 (9:14:02 PM): oo
TenorSax Mishee (9:14:21 PM): My keyboarding class is what's making it worse though, I'm in keyboarding two.
AnimeLord588 (9:14:31 PM): ooo
AnimeLord588 (9:14:33 PM): y
TenorSax Mishee (9:16:01 PM): I usually type so fast, not on purpose of course. I just know where all the keys are and I got so fast, it's not good for my hands of course.
AnimeLord588 (9:16:10 PM): eyah
AnimeLord588 (9:16:11 PM): **yea
TenorSax Mishee (9:16:34 PM): And it's my right hand too, which just makes it worse because I have to write with that hand.. and I crochet with that hand, but I've taken a break from that...
AnimeLord588 (9:16:51 PM): yeah
AnimeLord588 (10:18:49 PM): michelle
TenorSax Mishee (10:20:00 PM): yea?
AnimeLord588 (10:20:07 PM): how r u doin?
TenorSax Mishee (10:20:28 PM): I'm.. shaking. Trying to keep myself together...
TenorSax Mishee (10:20:40 PM): I know I'm going to break down when I go to bed...
TenorSax Mishee (10:20:51 PM): that's why I'm afraid to go to sleep.. I don't even think I'll be able to..
AnimeLord588 (10:21:01 PM): its better to let it out michelle
AnimeLord588 (10:21:16 PM): those who cry r stronger than those who dont
TenorSax Mishee (10:22:48 PM): I know.. I will sooner or later.. just not now..
AnimeLord588 (10:22:59 PM): yeah
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THAT'S what's wrong Ronald. You left so fast I couldn't tell you everything that was wrong.
I still love you. Never said I didn't.
I was told to give you space. Not by you in particular, it was advice from friends.
Yes, I still want to be friends with you. I only walked by you because I couldn't figure out if you were going to be pissed at me today or not. I was avioding anymore confrontation than I already needed.
But I got it anyways, didn't I?
And yea, it does hurt, waiting for you to ask me back out, now you see how I've felt all those time?
Don't give me fucking bullshit about how I don't trust you either.
Don't ask me if I've cheating on you.
Don't ask me if I'm in love with someone else.
Don't ask me if I've been using you.
Because don't you think it's funny that I've accused you three times and you've only accused me once?
And you remember that one time, you left all those messages on Samantha's myspace? Telling her you loved her, calling her cutie? Does anyone really have the brains to do something like that when you have a girlfriend? Where she can see whatever the hell you type to each other? Do you think it doesn't look like to half of the population that YOU possibly COULD have been in love with her?
And you remember when I vented at you that one night after I found out about Samantha and that next afternoon, when you wanted to come talk to me, you said you'd been thinking about asking me if you could go out with Samantha to prom and if I said 'no' then you'd break up with me, just for that weekend, so you wouldn't REGRET anything?
You think I don't care about you anymore? Your fucking wrong.
You think I hate you? Your fucking wrong.
Call me cocky, call me selfish, call me a bitch, but your not use to having to be me, coming crawling back to you after I do something wrong.
Neither one of us had done something wrong.. I just needed time to get myself together.
And after what happened today? You questioning me and my loyalty to you? I'm not sure if I can picture myself with you getting married.
If you really fucking care...
NEVER have I cheated on you.
NEVER have I used you.
NEVER have I questioned if I loved someone else rather than you.
ALWAYS I've loved you.
Sorry if I hurt you.
But maybe it was best if you knew what I felt.
And if this breaks us apart for ever?
I do want us to be friends.
I'm sorry...
mishee.
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There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve held on what I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you said about me when I’m not around
You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down
But I’ve had too many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand
So I’m waiting until the upper hand is mine
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel you've crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall and I’m counting down the time
Cause I’ve had so many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand
So I’m waiting until the upper hand is mine
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(Now it’s all gone)
I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(Now it’s all gone)
AnimeLord588 (9:07:16 PM): so he dont fuck up like i did
TenorSax Mishee (9:08:37 PM): I really appreciate it.
TenorSax Mishee (9:08:49 PM): He/Tiffany didn't tell you why I did it, did they?
AnimeLord588 (9:08:58 PM): no
TenorSax Mishee (9:09:49 PM): I honestly just wanted to get my life back together.. I'm having a really hard time right now, and today he didn't make it any better.
TenorSax Mishee (9:12:33 PM): My dad is really sick and he's been to the doctor, but he won't tell me what's wrong with him, my mom's been bitching me out for the past week because of something that happened when I was like 12 and she didn't find out until the last time I spent the night with her, my grades are going downhill and I'm begginging to show signs of that carpal tunnel thing because I type so much all day.
AnimeLord588 (9:12:53 PM): ooo
AnimeLord588 (9:12:59 PM): dont get on aim no more
AnimeLord588 (9:13:03 PM): take comp break
TenorSax Mishee (9:13:08 PM): Can't do it.
TenorSax Mishee (9:13:39 PM): I have TWO computer classes every day.
AnimeLord588 (9:14:02 PM): oo
TenorSax Mishee (9:14:21 PM): My keyboarding class is what's making it worse though, I'm in keyboarding two.
AnimeLord588 (9:14:31 PM): ooo
AnimeLord588 (9:14:33 PM): y
TenorSax Mishee (9:16:01 PM): I usually type so fast, not on purpose of course. I just know where all the keys are and I got so fast, it's not good for my hands of course.
AnimeLord588 (9:16:10 PM): eyah
AnimeLord588 (9:16:11 PM): **yea
TenorSax Mishee (9:16:34 PM): And it's my right hand too, which just makes it worse because I have to write with that hand.. and I crochet with that hand, but I've taken a break from that...
AnimeLord588 (9:16:51 PM): yeah
AnimeLord588 (10:18:49 PM): michelle
TenorSax Mishee (10:20:00 PM): yea?
AnimeLord588 (10:20:07 PM): how r u doin?
TenorSax Mishee (10:20:28 PM): I'm.. shaking. Trying to keep myself together...
TenorSax Mishee (10:20:40 PM): I know I'm going to break down when I go to bed...
TenorSax Mishee (10:20:51 PM): that's why I'm afraid to go to sleep.. I don't even think I'll be able to..
AnimeLord588 (10:21:01 PM): its better to let it out michelle
AnimeLord588 (10:21:16 PM): those who cry r stronger than those who dont
TenorSax Mishee (10:22:48 PM): I know.. I will sooner or later.. just not now..
AnimeLord588 (10:22:59 PM): yeah
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THAT'S what's wrong Ronald. You left so fast I couldn't tell you everything that was wrong.
I still love you. Never said I didn't.
I was told to give you space. Not by you in particular, it was advice from friends.
Yes, I still want to be friends with you. I only walked by you because I couldn't figure out if you were going to be pissed at me today or not. I was avioding anymore confrontation than I already needed.
But I got it anyways, didn't I?
And yea, it does hurt, waiting for you to ask me back out, now you see how I've felt all those time?
Don't give me fucking bullshit about how I don't trust you either.
Don't ask me if I've cheating on you.
Don't ask me if I'm in love with someone else.
Don't ask me if I've been using you.
Because don't you think it's funny that I've accused you three times and you've only accused me once?
And you remember that one time, you left all those messages on Samantha's myspace? Telling her you loved her, calling her cutie? Does anyone really have the brains to do something like that when you have a girlfriend? Where she can see whatever the hell you type to each other? Do you think it doesn't look like to half of the population that YOU possibly COULD have been in love with her?
And you remember when I vented at you that one night after I found out about Samantha and that next afternoon, when you wanted to come talk to me, you said you'd been thinking about asking me if you could go out with Samantha to prom and if I said 'no' then you'd break up with me, just for that weekend, so you wouldn't REGRET anything?
You think I don't care about you anymore? Your fucking wrong.
You think I hate you? Your fucking wrong.
Call me cocky, call me selfish, call me a bitch, but your not use to having to be me, coming crawling back to you after I do something wrong.
Neither one of us had done something wrong.. I just needed time to get myself together.
And after what happened today? You questioning me and my loyalty to you? I'm not sure if I can picture myself with you getting married.
If you really fucking care...
NEVER have I cheated on you.
NEVER have I used you.
NEVER have I questioned if I loved someone else rather than you.
ALWAYS I've loved you.
Sorry if I hurt you.
But maybe it was best if you knew what I felt.
And if this breaks us apart for ever?
I do want us to be friends.
I'm sorry...
mishee.
----
There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve held on what I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you said about me when I’m not around
You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down
But I’ve had too many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand
So I’m waiting until the upper hand is mine
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel you've crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall and I’m counting down the time
Cause I’ve had so many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand
So I’m waiting until the upper hand is mine
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(Now it’s all gone)
I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not watch it drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed your shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(And then its all gone)
(And then it’s all gone)
(Now it’s all gone)