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Seriously think about what you wanna do...like what would you do if you could seriously do anything?
Being told/asked this, I can’t even think of anything cause I want it all. I want to be helpful, i want to be selfish. I want to be a doctor I want to be a writer. I want to speak lot of langages and see the world. I want to have a family and be super mom. I wanna be Wonder Woman and have is all.
For the longest time Ive wanted to be a writer. The idea of writing a story or any piece that would drive another to want to pursue the same thing I once did just seems so nice. So I’m trying. But I can’t finish anything i start.
So if I can’t write books then I’ll own a place where i can put my favorites and share the experiences I got from them with others. Bu i dunno if i could pull it off. Would people really want to come to my little book store?
Then there’s my mom wanting me to have a job that pays real good money so she can borrow it or what not. I would love to have lots of money, but if i don’t it’s not the end of the world. as long as i can get a new book every now and then and a movie I don’t think it’ll be too bad.
If i did own a store I’d want it to be a mix of Books a million’s ware houseness, where it‘s big and roomy, barnes and nobles “homey” atmosphere, and then to have the look of Uncommon Grounds with the old tables and couches. But there would also have to be music. I like some background noise when i read. And I’d love to have the food and drinks to be home made feel. Like have there be like and actual kitchen and like a refrigerator where you can grab a drink with all sorts of fun magnets on it and stuff. And some baking cookies and all sorts of other fresh baked goods. I guess what I’m trying to do is make this place a home away from home. It’s the place I would have loved to have as my get away from home when things got sucky and such. I want it to be a place to just get away from it all and relax.
Also, it’d be like a new and use books store plus library. Like you could borrow a book and if you didn’t like just bring it back or buy it. Sure then people could just borrow the same book over and over or something but if you like a book enough to rent it a few times then you should just buy it! You can also sell ones you don’t have room for or didn’t like or what not. Actually thinking about it now. If you borrow a book i’ll do like a blockbuster and have to charge you for it cause i don’t think I’ll make any money the other way and if i don’t have money then no book store and no books tore means I’m a bum and if I’m a bum I have to live out of a box and as fun as it sounds I prefer not to have to come to that.
I dunno if this is crazy or not. Or if it's been done. If it's been done I'll have to make my way cooler cause wel I'll have to, to get people to come. And if it's crazy I'd like to try it still just to show that it can be done.
who knows maybe I will write on the side and you'll see my name here and there.
And if all that doesn’t come through it’d be cool to work on a tv show or something. As an assistant or someting. I dunno. I’ve just recently started thinking about it. All because of Adam Baldwin and Nathan Fillion and Hugh Jackman and so many other men I’d love to met and be interesting to work with, even if it is to get them a drink and a danish.
Yeah all this came from talking to lauren at like one in the morning about me having no direction in my life or knowing what I wanted from life or to do with my self. Like I told her I'm terrifed to grow up yet really want to. I want to go be on my own but I don't want to be alone. It's crazy, I'm crazy. Either way I feel alittle better thinking that I have a goal now. somethign to strive for,