OMG, I'M IN "THAT'S SO 70'S HOUSE" AND "I'M FREAKING OUT" ((Don't worrie be happy part 4))
today is: Feb 2nd-Feb 5th, 2006
I closed with amanada 2 night(Feb2nd), latly i have been REALY looking foward to closing w/ her...She's been the manager of Hot Topic for YEARS now, and she is amazing, Latly when we have been working we've realy been talking, like serious talking, and tonight she something to me that kinda gave me a reality check...we were cleaning the back of the store (which was clearence...need i say more) folding tee shirts, adn she was saying in a funny, sarcastic, way "well we're never going to get out of here w/ u sitting on the floor"...The truth is, the tee shirt baskets are six down, once you her to the third one down, and there's a lot of shirts to be folded, u have to "bend and snap" a lot, and with my hip, it kills me to do that over and over again, so I sit, when we are closed, and do my work. I'm not being lazy just doing my job w/o hurting myself (esp. w/ no insurance)...I said this to her in a slightly less lenghtly way, and she concered. As long as i get the job done...
Later she said to me in a half joking matter, "promise me that if u end up in a 'e-zzy scoter' you won't turn in tot he size one" I laughed and promised her...
Think about it, when u see thoes people, it's true, the do wind up being the size of one...and witht the weigth that I haved gained, it looks to be my future...I am 6'2", and weigh 273lbs...that's discusting, to me. I'm a big boy, not hugongurous, but big, i toped out @ 280, since working @ hot topic again I lost around 20lbs, and Have gained back 3lbs. I joind a gym, as u all know a year ago, I weighed 280, and got down to 256lbs, then everyone i went w/ stoped going and gained every lb back...I still have the membership, and I refuse to cancel it...If you know me, I don't care what people think of me, ever...but when i went to the gym by my self, only once did I, i feel like the everyone is looking @ me, on top of me, when I am probly the last thin they would look @, but its how I feel and I just can't do it. I was so excited when I found out that Erica, the full time asst. goes there and she said we could "meet up" and go...but thatys hasen't happened yet...she's been going thew a ton of stuff, and I'm not mad, but i realy want to go. I was always big since i broke my hip (10years old), I was alway teased ect, when I got to high school, I changed that, I weighed 245lbs going in and was much shorter, I was a size 40ptx and an xxl tee by the end of sophmore year I was 165lbs, a 30-32 waist and a md tee. And was that way till i met Kenny, actually simillar story for him, fat when younger, got skinny in high school, and met me :-D...we've both gotten big, and he'll admit it too, he's actually lost some weight, I don't know how much, but when u can see it tin there face, u know. I used to get mad when 30's didn't fit me...hahaha...now look @ me...@ 280lbs I was a sz 40ptz and a xl-xxl tee, now I'm a 36-38, and a xl, just from the whole 17lbs I lost...
I've been saying "I need to go on a diet" and i tryed...for about 2 hrs...but from Amanda...I'm gonna put my money wear my mouth is. I have such horrible pain as it is, and you know wht my weight isn't helping that either, and the older i get, the harder it's gonna be to loose it, and no, I don't want to be the size of my "e-zzy scooter"...It's been four days and I've stuck to it, I knwo nothing to be proud of, but it's four days I've actually stuck to it, instead of talking about it for the last 2 and a 1/2 years...I'm doing what I did b4, with some minor adjustments, When I lost it b4 I was 15, 6 years ago, so some "age" changes need to be made...b4 all i did was eat what ever want b4 7pm...and I lost 80 lbs. in, get this, 6 months! This time around I'm eating nothing past 7pm, 2-3 meals a day...if i only have 2 meals n i get hungrey later, i will eat a small HEALTHY snack, for instance, today I had a small side of sesame chicken, no rice (and i didn't even fiish it), for diner I had a "bowl appatete" and a banana as a snack 2 night...I drink nothing but Propell and diet green tea from wawa, and the ocacional diet coke w/ lime all 2gether i have about 1500 calores compared to 80bilgion i was eating b4...My bigest problem was eating @night...like 12am, getting a 10inch wawa chicken salad hoggie and bag-o chips n then going to bed...that the worst thing 4 u...because u don't use any of the carbs, so they turn to fat...thoes carb diets are so bad for you...u body needs carbs, otherwise it can't function...i mean u don't need an excessive amount, but don't cut them out!
So as of feb 2nd, 2006 I weigh 273lbs, my goal weight is 165lbs...my target weight is 230lbs by June 1st...so wish me luck...and I'll up-date you about it!
Amanda has motovated me more than anyone nor myself, in my whole life to do something, and to u, w/o even realize it, THANKYOU!
<3 ~KeV~
I closed with amanada 2 night(Feb2nd), latly i have been REALY looking foward to closing w/ her...She's been the manager of Hot Topic for YEARS now, and she is amazing, Latly when we have been working we've realy been talking, like serious talking, and tonight she something to me that kinda gave me a reality check...we were cleaning the back of the store (which was clearence...need i say more) folding tee shirts, adn she was saying in a funny, sarcastic, way "well we're never going to get out of here w/ u sitting on the floor"...The truth is, the tee shirt baskets are six down, once you her to the third one down, and there's a lot of shirts to be folded, u have to "bend and snap" a lot, and with my hip, it kills me to do that over and over again, so I sit, when we are closed, and do my work. I'm not being lazy just doing my job w/o hurting myself (esp. w/ no insurance)...I said this to her in a slightly less lenghtly way, and she concered. As long as i get the job done...
Later she said to me in a half joking matter, "promise me that if u end up in a 'e-zzy scoter' you won't turn in tot he size one" I laughed and promised her...
Think about it, when u see thoes people, it's true, the do wind up being the size of one...and witht the weigth that I haved gained, it looks to be my future...I am 6'2", and weigh 273lbs...that's discusting, to me. I'm a big boy, not hugongurous, but big, i toped out @ 280, since working @ hot topic again I lost around 20lbs, and Have gained back 3lbs. I joind a gym, as u all know a year ago, I weighed 280, and got down to 256lbs, then everyone i went w/ stoped going and gained every lb back...I still have the membership, and I refuse to cancel it...If you know me, I don't care what people think of me, ever...but when i went to the gym by my self, only once did I, i feel like the everyone is looking @ me, on top of me, when I am probly the last thin they would look @, but its how I feel and I just can't do it. I was so excited when I found out that Erica, the full time asst. goes there and she said we could "meet up" and go...but thatys hasen't happened yet...she's been going thew a ton of stuff, and I'm not mad, but i realy want to go. I was always big since i broke my hip (10years old), I was alway teased ect, when I got to high school, I changed that, I weighed 245lbs going in and was much shorter, I was a size 40ptx and an xxl tee by the end of sophmore year I was 165lbs, a 30-32 waist and a md tee. And was that way till i met Kenny, actually simillar story for him, fat when younger, got skinny in high school, and met me :-D...we've both gotten big, and he'll admit it too, he's actually lost some weight, I don't know how much, but when u can see it tin there face, u know. I used to get mad when 30's didn't fit me...hahaha...now look @ me...@ 280lbs I was a sz 40ptz and a xl-xxl tee, now I'm a 36-38, and a xl, just from the whole 17lbs I lost...
I've been saying "I need to go on a diet" and i tryed...for about 2 hrs...but from Amanda...I'm gonna put my money wear my mouth is. I have such horrible pain as it is, and you know wht my weight isn't helping that either, and the older i get, the harder it's gonna be to loose it, and no, I don't want to be the size of my "e-zzy scooter"...It's been four days and I've stuck to it, I knwo nothing to be proud of, but it's four days I've actually stuck to it, instead of talking about it for the last 2 and a 1/2 years...I'm doing what I did b4, with some minor adjustments, When I lost it b4 I was 15, 6 years ago, so some "age" changes need to be made...b4 all i did was eat what ever want b4 7pm...and I lost 80 lbs. in, get this, 6 months! This time around I'm eating nothing past 7pm, 2-3 meals a day...if i only have 2 meals n i get hungrey later, i will eat a small HEALTHY snack, for instance, today I had a small side of sesame chicken, no rice (and i didn't even fiish it), for diner I had a "bowl appatete" and a banana as a snack 2 night...I drink nothing but Propell and diet green tea from wawa, and the ocacional diet coke w/ lime all 2gether i have about 1500 calores compared to 80bilgion i was eating b4...My bigest problem was eating @night...like 12am, getting a 10inch wawa chicken salad hoggie and bag-o chips n then going to bed...that the worst thing 4 u...because u don't use any of the carbs, so they turn to fat...thoes carb diets are so bad for you...u body needs carbs, otherwise it can't function...i mean u don't need an excessive amount, but don't cut them out!
So as of feb 2nd, 2006 I weigh 273lbs, my goal weight is 165lbs...my target weight is 230lbs by June 1st...so wish me luck...and I'll up-date you about it!
Amanda has motovated me more than anyone nor myself, in my whole life to do something, and to u, w/o even realize it, THANKYOU!
<3 ~KeV~