"so glad to see you again, i thought you had run away"
~So its been a really shitty couple of weeks, but you'll have that, and a lot of it is shit that I volunteered for... so i really can't complain... but some of it I can...~
~I've decided to write some "pop" tunes... i figure i might actually be able to find people to play this stuff... since i'm writing it all anyways, it should be easier... and its not shitty pop either, just catchy shit, simple shit... the song I wrote today sounds pretty good... needs some tweaking... but it should be done, vocals included in the next week... :) ~
~things got cleared up with roxie, only a couple more weeks, im so nervous ... not that she's not going to be what I expect, but rather, I'm not going to be what she expects, or fuck it up somehow, but I know that's just my addict mentality workin me. I was at work the other night, and I was thinking about this experience I had with niki back when we were dating... normally I would be fucked up over that, but I remember that I just smiled, and thought to myself, "I'm glad I got to experience that, I hope that i'll have it with someone else in the future." and then I went right back to work and it left me. now I know what trent has been telling me about vanishment... and vanishing off 13th step seems to make a lot more sense nowadays too... :) i <3 maynard... i <3 roxie... i can't wait, im pretty excited.~
~trying to get some regularity in my schedule going on with meetings, and hopefully some lessons or classes soon. that'd be nice. I'd really like to visit antioch outside of the party atmosphere that I know it for.~
~clean date still hasn't changed.~
~I've decided to write some "pop" tunes... i figure i might actually be able to find people to play this stuff... since i'm writing it all anyways, it should be easier... and its not shitty pop either, just catchy shit, simple shit... the song I wrote today sounds pretty good... needs some tweaking... but it should be done, vocals included in the next week... :) ~
~things got cleared up with roxie, only a couple more weeks, im so nervous ... not that she's not going to be what I expect, but rather, I'm not going to be what she expects, or fuck it up somehow, but I know that's just my addict mentality workin me. I was at work the other night, and I was thinking about this experience I had with niki back when we were dating... normally I would be fucked up over that, but I remember that I just smiled, and thought to myself, "I'm glad I got to experience that, I hope that i'll have it with someone else in the future." and then I went right back to work and it left me. now I know what trent has been telling me about vanishment... and vanishing off 13th step seems to make a lot more sense nowadays too... :) i <3 maynard... i <3 roxie... i can't wait, im pretty excited.~
~trying to get some regularity in my schedule going on with meetings, and hopefully some lessons or classes soon. that'd be nice. I'd really like to visit antioch outside of the party atmosphere that I know it for.~
~clean date still hasn't changed.~