Christmas isn't Christmas this year

[penguin042]

 My dad is going to a funeral tomorrow. The wife of the man who was his best man passed away earlier this week. They knew it was coming for a long time. It's hard enough as it is to lose someone you love, but it's Christmas time now. I know how much harder that makes it. My uncle died on Christmas Eve many years ago and I saw what it did to my aunt

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[littlekodama]

i never cared for christmas for just that reason, the loneliness of the holiday is depressing. but for some reason, this year (of all years...) I feel more in tuned to the holiday than I have ever felt before. i dont know why and by all rights I shouldn't, but i feel the christmas spirit this year, the one year I feel more lonely and sad, I feel more spirit. never have i felt the mysterious ways in which god works more...

[penguin042]

I'm glad He has graced you with the spirit of the holidays. Somehow I don't think even God's grace will get me in that spirit though. Isn't time supposed to be making me feel better? Why do I feel worse now than ever before?

[littlekodama]

the holidays are still often hard even if time has passed. i still miss my dad a lot during the holidays and my birthday even though its been like 21 years...

[penguin042]

fantastic, look at all I have to look forward to... Christmases, birthdays, anniversaries... I assumed it would be rough, but I never thought I'd have it this rough this soon.