talentless....

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I had a meeting with mrs. adams today... i avoided accusing Ms. Spencer for grading me wrong, and started out with i need another chance, and i was going to go on as i took art 1 two years in a row back in quboag with A's. Blamming Ms. Spencer for the only chance of me passing Art 1 by the skin of my teeth i knew wasn't a good aproch, not with a

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its was both of them actually. and ms. adams said that to me, because she pissed that i told ms. esilonis that ms.spencer was grading me wrong.
ms.spencer from the start said i was talentless and can't do art 2.... becuase i asked ms.adams that i wanted to skip art 1 becuase i have taken the class already (which i remember i have takening it twice) and ms.adams said, " i know your interested in art, and i have heard of you before. If you get an A i'll bump you up to art 3."...ever sense then....ms.spencer been taken off an easy 20 points off my projects saying i didn't follow the rubric when i did just in an alternative way...but had everytthing in it. but every couple of days she talked about how i would never get to art 2 and how i can't do this and that.....
its like they have a personal problem with me but i've enver fought with them both. and then i dind't help that i was sick for a good 3 weeks( and the nurse didn't put out a notice to all my teacher giving me a week to catch up at least) and i missed another 5 days from doctor appointments and she claimed i was skipping her class. and wrote me up at least 5 times this semester for "slipping class". then she would talk about my grade to the class....and try to himiluate me.
and it was sooo hard for me to even try to even think about "flaunting" my talent becuase we were doing something so easy and restricted. when everyone would assume i could beucase it was soo easy.....but it wasn't the case.
and my least trained area is my best work.....with oil paints and pastels. i hack up my brushes for different textures and i use my hands and old rages for different depths. and i beat up my canvases and dragg them on concreat to looked more aged. sooo i really don't know what i'm doing...but i get into it....and stuff happens. my only downfall is i don't know when to step back and look at what i'm creating....and sometimes i over work something....and then i trash it cauase i'm stubburn.

and i completely agree with you. but i still feel a little bit uneducated....thats why i wanted to take art and my main goal the painting classes....but maybe this happend for a reason.

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thanks for the comments.
they helped alot...