Its been awhile.
I went to my first day of classes yesterday! There was this feeling in the pit of my stomach as I climbed those obnoxiously long set of stairs, wasn't I here two years ago, is it really possible to change enough to be able to pass my classes? No matter how much of an ego I have about being a smart person, I am so afraid of failure, of not being able to grasp a concept told to me. My first class is the Magic, Witchcraft and Religions class with loreli; she met me in the circle of concrete, you know where everyone tends to congregate, and walked up to class together. It felt so good to walk into the classroom where I will be spending so much time and taking a seat next to my little sister. Its a little weird to think that she and I are finally at a moment in our lives that seem to connect and interact so much more and on such a different level of intelligence. The room filled up super fast and so many people I know, or serve coffee too, walked in. Amy Harper exudes such a sense of passion about the topic she teaches and so much knowledge that you imedidately sink into your seat and just soak up the information. Having a vivacious person stand in front of you spewing forth words on everything that they worked for and love is amazing, and I forgot how much I love just being the person to sit and listen and indulge my ears in something I didn't know before. Religion is going to take on such a different form to me and I am so ready to open up and learn more then just what people argue about and so on.
Speech was my next class but Karen Huck walked in, instead of Jon Bouknight so I just got up and left. I don't like her, nor the way she teaches. So I am only taking two classes this term. The next class is Intro to sociology. About a year and half ago I tried this class but failed, didn't like the professer or the people in it so I just stopped going. Tom Barry is still the professer of this class, and there are still some um...lets put it nicely some very interesting people in it, but I think I have finally learned that no one else can affect the way I do my work except for me...That took a long time in grasping that concept. Everything is pretty much the same in the Sociology class, there are a couple people I know this term which makes it a bit nicer and Tom Barry gave me such a big smile and said "nice to see you back" with such sincerity that I couldn't help but think in my mind..yes this is it, I do belong here. Nine-thirty rolls around, I didn't even realize I had been there for 3 hours. I love that this class is only once a week. Its going to work out so nicely. These are the perfect two classes for me to start with, I was going to try and get into a third one, but I am going to leave that for next term. I am going to make sure that I pass these two with flying colors!
Sometimes I am just so worried that I am one of those people who just pretends to have intelligence while fooling the world around them.
Kali and I are sitting in this amazing little tea shop that just opened up downtown right next to great harvest. Its so pretty in here, and serene. Teapots of all different colors, shapes, and sizes line the walls. There is also this rack that holds a hundred glass jars that have every kind of tea they serve contained inside so you can have a whiff! Perfect place to study. :)
How does it feel to know that you are walking on streets that are so old and have so much history? If I know you well, I am pretty sure you are just wandering, finding and discovering new things. A sense of being lost but then a sense of being so comfortable and so at home all at the same time. Thats the feeling that always over comes me when I travel. Such distance, such closeness, sometimes its hard to contain it all.
Keep soaking up everything.
Your Friend.
Penelope Jo.
Speech was my next class but Karen Huck walked in, instead of Jon Bouknight so I just got up and left. I don't like her, nor the way she teaches. So I am only taking two classes this term. The next class is Intro to sociology. About a year and half ago I tried this class but failed, didn't like the professer or the people in it so I just stopped going. Tom Barry is still the professer of this class, and there are still some um...lets put it nicely some very interesting people in it, but I think I have finally learned that no one else can affect the way I do my work except for me...That took a long time in grasping that concept. Everything is pretty much the same in the Sociology class, there are a couple people I know this term which makes it a bit nicer and Tom Barry gave me such a big smile and said "nice to see you back" with such sincerity that I couldn't help but think in my mind..yes this is it, I do belong here. Nine-thirty rolls around, I didn't even realize I had been there for 3 hours. I love that this class is only once a week. Its going to work out so nicely. These are the perfect two classes for me to start with, I was going to try and get into a third one, but I am going to leave that for next term. I am going to make sure that I pass these two with flying colors!
Sometimes I am just so worried that I am one of those people who just pretends to have intelligence while fooling the world around them.
Kali and I are sitting in this amazing little tea shop that just opened up downtown right next to great harvest. Its so pretty in here, and serene. Teapots of all different colors, shapes, and sizes line the walls. There is also this rack that holds a hundred glass jars that have every kind of tea they serve contained inside so you can have a whiff! Perfect place to study. :)
How does it feel to know that you are walking on streets that are so old and have so much history? If I know you well, I am pretty sure you are just wandering, finding and discovering new things. A sense of being lost but then a sense of being so comfortable and so at home all at the same time. Thats the feeling that always over comes me when I travel. Such distance, such closeness, sometimes its hard to contain it all.
Keep soaking up everything.
Your Friend.
Penelope Jo.