2:52 AM:December 10th:2005
Well it is rather late, or early depending on how you look at it and...I feel like updating my livejournal with some things I have been thinking about/experiencing/pondering etc.
So I will...
I went to the mall the other day. And due to the fact that it is nearly Christmas there were many people there...so many people in fact I had a difficult time finding a parking space, let alone navagating some areas in the mall without unneccessarily bumping into people. It was uncomfortable, stuffy,crowded...so many people...some shopping, some socializing, some working, some power walking...just a mass of people. Anyways about 4 minutes after I walked into the mall I felt an overwhelming sense of how rediculous our capitalistic society(money and meterial possession centered) really is. All the shit around us we don't need...all the marketing we are bombarded by daily, all the impressions that are placed upon us by commercial radio and television and billboard advertising. It's as if we don't know what it is exactly that we feel anymore, we just go by what our initial senses tell us to go by. We trust these senses, and then of course do what they say.It's as if we buy certain things that make us feel in a certain manner...we equate having x to feeling y but the feeling is forever fleeting and has no absolute objective basis...no guarentee.We are forever left desiring more and more in this world, at least from my perspective. More money, more success, more respect, more ______, ... but where do we draw the line? when is enough enough and suddenly we are satisfied with the now, with the present moment,with what we have?
I am not sure what exact point I am trying to make, perhaps I am not trying to make one in particular in the first place....
Have a wonderful holday season!
So I will...
I went to the mall the other day. And due to the fact that it is nearly Christmas there were many people there...so many people in fact I had a difficult time finding a parking space, let alone navagating some areas in the mall without unneccessarily bumping into people. It was uncomfortable, stuffy,crowded...so many people...some shopping, some socializing, some working, some power walking...just a mass of people. Anyways about 4 minutes after I walked into the mall I felt an overwhelming sense of how rediculous our capitalistic society(money and meterial possession centered) really is. All the shit around us we don't need...all the marketing we are bombarded by daily, all the impressions that are placed upon us by commercial radio and television and billboard advertising. It's as if we don't know what it is exactly that we feel anymore, we just go by what our initial senses tell us to go by. We trust these senses, and then of course do what they say.It's as if we buy certain things that make us feel in a certain manner...we equate having x to feeling y but the feeling is forever fleeting and has no absolute objective basis...no guarentee.We are forever left desiring more and more in this world, at least from my perspective. More money, more success, more respect, more ______, ... but where do we draw the line? when is enough enough and suddenly we are satisfied with the now, with the present moment,with what we have?
I am not sure what exact point I am trying to make, perhaps I am not trying to make one in particular in the first place....
Have a wonderful holday season!