melodrama queen bee
I should write rap songs... with a country flair. I'll call them raptry songs and they'll take the world by storm.
It's a scary thing to admit to myself that any confidence I had in myself has been scraped away and shaken off. But scarier than that is the fact that it seems like any change that become of that is significant to to notice, but not significant enough for anyone to care. I have felt so alone as I have in the past month since elementary school, and this is a place I promised myself I would never go back to. It's hard to see others become closer to one another, then to try and acomplish that yourself and fail at it.
Someone told me that I change personalities, somewhat frequently. I didn't think so, until then. Ever since, a viel of self conciousness has followed me more than usual. I'm terrified.
It could all just be me over analysing things, but it seems to be more than that this time. Especially since when I've tried to talk certain people about anything relating to this, they nod along, agreeing. Those people stare at me with a blank expression, and then pat me on the back and say "buck up, kiddo".
so what do I do?
I'm scared, and intimidated, surprisingly enough by a couple of the people I never thought would.
I feel like the elephant in the room.
How did this happen?!?!?~!@&^%(^*%$
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHG!
/rant
It's a scary thing to admit to myself that any confidence I had in myself has been scraped away and shaken off. But scarier than that is the fact that it seems like any change that become of that is significant to to notice, but not significant enough for anyone to care. I have felt so alone as I have in the past month since elementary school, and this is a place I promised myself I would never go back to. It's hard to see others become closer to one another, then to try and acomplish that yourself and fail at it.
Someone told me that I change personalities, somewhat frequently. I didn't think so, until then. Ever since, a viel of self conciousness has followed me more than usual. I'm terrified.
It could all just be me over analysing things, but it seems to be more than that this time. Especially since when I've tried to talk certain people about anything relating to this, they nod along, agreeing. Those people stare at me with a blank expression, and then pat me on the back and say "buck up, kiddo".
so what do I do?
I'm scared, and intimidated, surprisingly enough by a couple of the people I never thought would.
I feel like the elephant in the room.
How did this happen?!?!?~!@&^%(^*%$
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHG!
/rant