::sigh::
So I've been feeling very lonely lately. I've gotten to a point where I have feelings for two people in my life, both seem to be unavailable for various reasons. Beyond that my parents (my mother in particular) almost seem to be trying to alienate me from the world. I have such a hard time accomplishing anything when I'm around them, but I also have a hard time breaking away. My weekends are my only escape, but I've been worried about how well I can really do those as well. I just have been feeling so stuck. Like I'm trapped in this cycle and I cant break away from any of the parts that are keeping me where I am.
So I don't know which or if all of those things are making me feel this way, but when I lay in bed at night I just feel so empty and alone. Leading up to going to bed I start getting to a point where I talk to people far too much. Trying to cling to what social aspects I can. But sometimes I feel like I'm chasing people away when I do that.
Maybe I'll see if I can get a refill on my anti depressants... maybe that will help... I thought I was doing fine without them other then the dizzy spells but maybe not.
So I don't know which or if all of those things are making me feel this way, but when I lay in bed at night I just feel so empty and alone. Leading up to going to bed I start getting to a point where I talk to people far too much. Trying to cling to what social aspects I can. But sometimes I feel like I'm chasing people away when I do that.
Maybe I'll see if I can get a refill on my anti depressants... maybe that will help... I thought I was doing fine without them other then the dizzy spells but maybe not.