May 11, 2006 09:17
Ive only been at my parents' house for 3 days and im already sick of being there and ready to leave. I love my mom, but she is constantly criticizing me. Constantly saying things in such a way to make you feel guilty or stupid for even thinking about doing something.
The first night I tried to get the internet working on my computer so I could talk to Andrea, and she was getting pissed at me and saying I was addicted to the computer and needed to not get on. When I finally gave up because it was too late to talk to Andrea anyway and I couldnt find a way to set it up without messing up my parents' connection, she started demanding i cut my hair and saying that it looked horrible and i looked dirty and sleazy and such.
Tuesday night i mentioned i had gotten sick that morning so she started getting mad at me for that and saying my milk was bad and i had let it go bad and that i shouldnt have muffins and that i shouldnt have ramen.... etc etc etc...
So finally on Wednesday i get home and tell her that after i pack im going to go down to andrea's house to surprise her... and she said that i shouldnt go down cause it wasnt effecient, and that i was wasting alot of gas, and that andrea wanted a break from being around me, and that i was going to be in a not so great area with my stuff in my car and all that... and then i finally got frusterated and said "please dont criticize me for this"... she did what she always does when i finally say something and starts saying that she wasnt criticizing and wasnt telling me not to do something and was just making suggestions and all that crap... so the phone rang and while she was on the phone i left...
my dad came over later to the apartment later to "help me pack" (he had come back for the night to help move things away from their house to get painted) and of course he gave me the fucking guilt trip for making her feel bad like he always does... I already hate being there... i already want out... i just cant deal with this... ::cry::
I did end up going down to see Andrea, and she was mad at me for not talking to her for the last couple days... finally after she was upset with me for a while i cuddled up next to her and went to sleep... up until that moment yesterday was complete shit... i just wish i could get a break once in a while...