this is what i know
so last night was horrible.. i was having a horrible night and all i wanted to do was get out of the house cause my dad brought his girlfriend home and kept asking me, are you leaving, are you going out, do you have plans.. really making me feel like i was so welcome in my own house.. and then i got lied to..yelled at by a trick ass hoe named nikki who by the way if i see i will put my fist through her head for being such a fucking bitch but what can i expect from people "the asshole" hangs around.. ihate it when you need a friend and no one will pick up the phone.. i got told last night "i dont want to deal with this right now so im gonna go" so many fucking times i cant stand it..im tired of being treating like im disposable.. because im not.. i havnet done anything wrong in any situation that i can think of to be treated this way..its like been constant latley.. everyday someone says something or does something or hurts me emotionally or physically no matter what and i dont know what i did to disearve it.. well there is one thing, and its the one thing i keep getting threatened that if i tell someone will be on my doorstep to kick my ass.. i just want that person to know whats going on behind their back.. i cant take the quilt anymore, but right now im scared to do anything because i seriously would get my ass kicked and i dont want to be in the hosipital because i know an abusive asshole who would beat the shit out of a girl for any god damn reason.. im tired of dealing with a heartless bastard who gets everythng in life and gets away with shit..for once i want the bad people to get caught, get punished and feel as horrible as they should but i know even if i did open my mouth and tell the truth he would just move on to another girl and not give a shit about what he lost.. i hate it.. i feel like im getting the fucking wrath of hell put on my shoulders and i cant get away from it and i cant do anything about it and im just scared.. i hate not having control over my life i hate it i just need help