soon but not soon enough..
i hate the waiting time inbetween doing something you want to do..i want to be in atlanta already and well the 5 days i have to wait, is starting to be too long.. I feel like when i get there i'll seem some things people have been keeping me in the dark about. Things i dont neccessarly want to see, and or know, but something i feel like i have to deal with to move on. There are some things about a person's past that should stay in the past.. theres a reason why you arent supossed to look back, the future isnt there. It's hard but sometimes i think you need to let go of certain things, and or people that are holding you back from moving on. There are a couple people i'm worried about, but feel like i cant be there to help anymore. I have to realize, for the first time, that you cant save the world, that some people just cant be helped because they dont want to be, and it isnt my responsibility anymore. I just wish some people could get a reality check, and that i wouldnt have to be the one to do it for them. I wish people would just realize everything that is out there, and i know its hard to do living in atlanta when everyone and everything around you is doing the same thing making the situation seem like its ok, and normal and that everyone is doing it. Thats one thing ive realized in my time out here, that there are people who dont do drugs on a daily basis if at all, and life is great.. i dunno, i can see myself down the line 10 years from now, and i know which friends ill still be close with that i know now, and they will still be an important part of my life, and others i know will just fade into a memory from the past.. and i guess thats how things are, and thats part of growing up..and thats what i have to learn to deal with