dying on the inside...
i'm very confused right now i dont know what i want, but do i ever. i think i want one thing but then i change my mind and want another. i met this new guy alex and he is very sweet, we went out the other night and i had a ok time i guess it was just weird because i couldnt stop thinking about that one person. it's been bothering me really bad it's like stressing me out and i know it shouldnt be but i can help it...i've been feeling really depressed lately with my sister leaving and my parents fighting i kind of feel like i'm all alone the only thing thats been keeping me happy has been my dancing it just allows me to express myself with out saying how i really feel. last week we had this amazing guy from the houston repertory school of dance come and teach us ballet it was so awesome he was so graceful at everything he did, he's coming back to teach us pointe and i cant wait! theres so many things i want to write but i cant. its hard! i dont have anyone i can really talk to right now because no one really understands...it's nice being alone every once and awhile but it's so lonely...