God Do I Suck, or What?
I feel it's only fair to point out my attention whorey-ness to my non-readers right now.
I've just spent the last two hours setting up groups, posting in places asking people to LOOK AT ME LOOK AT ME
When in actuality I am little to nothing (with high self esteem to boot).
I've never actually finished a whole novel. Everytime I see my NaNoWriMo "score" from this year (my first year) I die a little inside from 3rd degree shame burns. God do I suck or what?
Did I mention I have three "journals" all saying the same thing (this, blogger, and xanga) just because I want people to NOTICE me?
And I have a sick twisted idea that one day I'll have actual fans who will get a kick out of reading this... oh God I can't believe I'm actually posting that little secret because it's so... ack. I mean what are my chances of ever even becoming published?
My God I'm not a real writer am I? I don't observe enough, don't obsess enough, don't write enough.
Just read a lovely little bit on how Stephanie Meyer began Twilight and I feel SO sub par.
http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/twilight.html
It's not her fault I suck and she's got five books (not all out yet) and a movie deal and millions of fans and Bestsellers. And all I have is 40,000+ words of fiction that I'm trashing to begin my FIRST DRAFT again.
I think I'll go wallow (and work on my characters because that's the only way I'm going to re-start this book and I will finish it and it will rock).
Violet
No jokes about Doubt this time, she's gotten the best of me
I've just spent the last two hours setting up groups, posting in places asking people to LOOK AT ME LOOK AT ME
When in actuality I am little to nothing (with high self esteem to boot).
I've never actually finished a whole novel. Everytime I see my NaNoWriMo "score" from this year (my first year) I die a little inside from 3rd degree shame burns. God do I suck or what?
Did I mention I have three "journals" all saying the same thing (this, blogger, and xanga) just because I want people to NOTICE me?
And I have a sick twisted idea that one day I'll have actual fans who will get a kick out of reading this... oh God I can't believe I'm actually posting that little secret because it's so... ack. I mean what are my chances of ever even becoming published?
My God I'm not a real writer am I? I don't observe enough, don't obsess enough, don't write enough.
Just read a lovely little bit on how Stephanie Meyer began Twilight and I feel SO sub par.
http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/twilight.html
It's not her fault I suck and she's got five books (not all out yet) and a movie deal and millions of fans and Bestsellers. And all I have is 40,000+ words of fiction that I'm trashing to begin my FIRST DRAFT again.
I think I'll go wallow (and work on my characters because that's the only way I'm going to re-start this book and I will finish it and it will rock).
Violet
No jokes about Doubt this time, she's gotten the best of me